When Lucy came home that night, she found an envelope on her bed. It had her name on it, and she recognized his handwriting. A wave of panic hit her.
What if he left? What if this letter was a goodbye?
Their last therapy session had ended in tears, angst, and arguments. She needed a minute to calm down. Sitting on her bed, she opened the envelope.
" Lucy,
Last night was harsh—but maybe necessary? We probably said things out of emotion, in the clumsiest way possible, but maybe we needed to. I never meant to make you cry, and not being allowed to hug you broke my heart. You can't even imagine how hard it was not to drive to your apartment, even if all I could do was give you the space you asked for.
And now—I can't sleep. So here it is. Here are all the reasons I love you—all the things I love, because they're yours :
Your smile
The way your laugh sounds
The way you put your hand against my heart
Your green dress
Your stubbornness
Your obsession with true crime
The outrageous amount of sugar you put in your coffee
The way you look at me at work
When you sing in the shower
When you dance like no one's watching
The look in your eyes when you're jealous
When your pinky links with mine
Your bravery
The way you take care of the people around you
When you jumped from a moving car to save my stupid life
The way you used to kiss me
Your hugs
The scent of your shower gel
Your messy bedroom
The way you look without makeup and your messy bun
When you sleep peacefully against me
Your curves
When you do everything you can to help others
The way you love your job
The amazing cop you are
The way you put your hand on the wheel when you drive
Every smile you gave me—before, during, and after we made love
The way you touched me
When I imagine you as the mother of my children
Your sensitivity
All the things you showed me that no one else ever did
When you're tipsy
When you fall asleep on me during a movie
Your perfume
Your love for animals
The way you use your psych degree to help people
When you drink your coffee in front of the window
Your rosy cheeks in winter
When you kissed my cheek in the morning
