I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending (part 2)

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Taylor wanted to tell everything to Tree, tell her how desperate and hopeless she was feeling, but something inside her kept telling her that it wasn't that bad. She wasn't as thin as the last time; she still had it under control. She didn't want everyone to think that she was not recovered, that she was weak. She decided to talk about those things that were not going to worry Tree that much, to keep it vague enough so that the redhead didn't think that she was skipping meals, counting calories and constantly thinking about how her body looked, she decided to focus on her anxiety. She just looked at Tree after shedding various tears:

- "I don't know... I haven't been sleeping well, I'm very anxious"

- "About what? Food? Let's talk about what happened last time" Tree said looking straight to Taylor. The redhead was going to be hard to fool, she knew the tricks, she knew Taylor too well.

- "It was...nothing. I don't know how it happened. I just was very hungry, and I started to eat and then couldn't stop until there was nothing left. But it hasn't happened again, it never happened before. It's fine" Taylor said trying to end the binge topic.

- "Tay...when someone binges it usually is because something deeper is happening. With your history, I believe that it was also because you've been restricting before. Eating is a human need; your body was probably starving when that happened. Also, I know you very well to know that you've been punishing yourself for that haven't you?"

Taylor looked at the floor, too ashamed to answer.

- "You've been restricting, haven't you?" The redhead insisted.

Taylor played with her fingers while moving anxiously one foot, then she replied:

- "A bit, but just to make up for what happened. It's nothing to worry about. I'm just tired because I've been so busy too, it all got a bit loud, but I don't want it to turn into something. I'm aware now that it's not okay, don't worry" she had never binged before, she didn't know that restricting after a binging episode was only going to fuel the cycle and that it was not healthy to 'make up for it afterwards'.

- "You don't have to make up for the binge, also, that was more than a month ago, you need to stop. You need help, Tay" Tree said looking sadly at Taylor.

- "Tree, I'm fine. I'll just start eating more regularly, make time for myself. But you're right this stops right now" Taylor said convincingly, but Tree was not convinced.

- "You should go to the doctor, seek therapy again"

- "NO! No doctors, it's fine, really. There's no need in involving anyone else"

- "Tay...you've been there for Lizzie, and you ALWAYS advise her to seek professional help. You've lost weight, you need to get checked up" Tree shrugged.

- "It's different, I've got the tools that I need, I just need to do what I need"

-You're terrified of stepping onto the scales" Tree said rolling her eyes, not playfully at all, but worried.

- "I don't like going to the doctor, that's all"

- "Then let me weight you" Tree said testing Taylor.

Taylor thought for a couple seconds about it. She was, in fact, terrified of stepping onto the scales. She didn't want to see the number; she was feeling so bad with herself already. But she needed to do this, to prove Tree that she was alright, she needed to keep everything under control, she couldn't let herself binge again.

- "Fine, but let's do it here. Let's go and buy some scales right now"

Tree was surprised, Taylor had never agreed so easily into getting weighted. The redhead hopped on the car while Taylor drove to the nearest pharmacy, when they got there, they both went inside to get the scales, but when they were on the line to pay, Taylor said she needed to got to the bathroom and ask Tree to do the line for her. Taylor ran into the bathroom and drank a bunch of water from the tap, too afraid to step on the scales and Tree seeing that she had lost weight, but still too afraid to step on the scales at all. She wanted to know but didn't at the same time. Then she went back just in time to pay. They went back to the studio and as Taylor took the machine out of the box, she took off her shoes and prepared to step, but Tree quickly stopped her:

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