Castles crumbling (Taylor Swift's little sister)

Chapter 52

Things were doing kind of okay. You were going to the treatment center twice a week and going to school every day but leaving early to go to treatment on Tuesday and Thursday. However, you felt like you were falling behind a bit at school and it was worrying you a lot, so eating was getting harder again. The urges to restrict and over exercise were becoming stronger and stronger each day.

On a Wednesday, you came home from school feeling frustrated. At the last hour you got your physics test back and you failed it. You weren't used to dealing with stuff like this, you have always been an excellent student, always did the right thing, always turned your homework on time, never missed class, never failed a single test. Not when you were restricting heavily and getting sicker every day, not even when you were going to the outpatient treatment program daily and you missed the classes after 12pm (before hospitalization). But now, that you were getting better, everything at school seemed to be getting worse.

On the way home, in the bus, you were actively fighting back the tears. As soon as you got off the bus, during those three minutes that took you to walk home, you let a little whimper out, but it suddenly turned into some tears streaming down your face. You quickly wiped them away, annoyed at yourself for crying, for gaining the weight back, for not controlling your tears, for not being able to control your feelings, for letting go of all the control you once had. You calmed down, clenched tightly your jaw and opened the front door, hoping no one was there when you walked in, because you didn't feel like dealing with anyone or anything right now. However, as soon as you pushed the door you saw Taylor and Tree in the living room working in their laptops.

- "Hey baby, how was your day?" Taylor said excited.

- "Hey Liz, how's everything going?" Tree said as you closed the door behind you, took a deep breath and approached the blonde and the redhead.

- "Hi Tree, Hi Tay. I'm fine. How are you?" You said hugging Taylor and letting her kiss you on your forehead, then hugged Tree.

- "Everything's great. We're about to finish here. Wanna go for a walk in a while?" Taylor asked.

- "Yeah" you replied walking towards the living room's bathroom to wash your hands.

- "Are you okay, Liz? You seem a bit off today" Tree asked.

- "I'm okay" you replied and ran upstairs.

- "Woah! Wait, Lizzie. You know you need to eat your afternoon snack" Taylor shouted when you were halfway upstairs.

You turned around furiously and snapped back: - "I was just going to my room to leave my backpack! Am I allowed to do that?"

Taylor was shocked at your reaction; Tree was shocked as well but she just pretended to keep typing on her computer.

- "Hey, I was just reminding you, no need to get mad" Taylor said.

- "No need in reminding what I already know. I'll be right back" you claimed as you went to your room.

When you got to your room you threw yourself onto your bed and let some tears out. They were angry tears now, you convinced yourself that you were mad at Taylor, but deep down you knew that you were mad at yourself.

Simultaneously, in the living room, Tree turned to Taylor:

- "What was that about?"

- "I have no idea. But there's definitely something wrong. You know her, she's never like that" Taylor replied holding her head with her hands in desperation.

- "She probably just had a difficult day at school, Tay. She's a teenager" Tree said trying to calm Taylor.

You came back downstairs and walked straight to the kitchen, without looking at the two older women in the living room. When you got to the counter you saw three plates with already prepped snacks: each plate had crackers, cheese and some strawberries. Besides each of the plates there were two cups of coffees and a cup filled with supplement. It was obvious: you were all having afternoon snack together. You furiously turned around: