After showering you put your pajamas on and cried on your bed, feeling guilty for what you've done. Taylor took longer in the shower, she felt dirty after purging and didn't know what to do, she brushed her teeth vehemently in distress. You knocked on Taylor's door, wanting some comfort but were surprised when she let you in and you found her sitting on her bed wrapped in her towel looking pale and trying to catch her breath.- "Tay! Are you okay?" You ran towards her.
- "Yeah yeah. I'm fine. The water was too hot, and I probably got dizzy because of that" the blonde said but you knew right away what was really happening. Her eyes were puffy and swollen. She had thrown up. She had that gaze from when she just had thrown up, she hated it, and it made her uncomfortable.
- "Were you sick? Do you need some medicine?" You asked.
Taylor's eyes opened wide in shock, she was nervous, a guilty look on her face. Without even trying to gauge a reaction, you knew that your sister had made herself throw up on purpose.
- "What? No! Not at all. I'm a bit lightheaded, that's all. Now, how are you feeling after the cookie?" Taylor said hugging you.
You knew that you couldn't put this on her, she was struggling, probably because you, once again, had triggered her. You couldn't tell her what you just did, it would just make everything worse.
- "A bit overwhelmed, to be honest. Maybe we can spend some time together?" You asked.
- "Sure! What do you want to do?"
- "Paint our nails!"
Taylor agreed and pulled out her collection, you both sat on her bed and did each other's nails. Your anxiety eased a bit and Taylor's too, then you headed off to sleep.
The next morning Taylor woke up at 4:30am to drive Andrea to the airport, she was flying to visit her sister. They checked that you were still sleeping and left you alone for 30 minutes while Taylor came back, you were supposed to wake up at 6:30am and Taylor was going to drop you at the treatment center at 7am. Tree was coming at 7:30am to weight Taylor. However, when she was back, she was so hungry that she decided to look for something to eat, she started to eat some whole wheat crackers, but it turned into a binge very quickly. Taylor panicked and went to her bathroom, she bent over the toilet and made herself throw up again losing track of time. You woke up at the set hour, but closed your eyes for a second, which actually turned into 15 minutes. When you woke up again you looked at the clock and went looking for Taylor.
- "Tay! I overslept!" You said approaching to her door, when you opened it, you didn't see Taylor at first, so decided to go inside, that's when you saw Taylor laying down on the floor, right in front of the bathroom.
- "TAY! TAY! WHAT'S WRONG?" You ran towards your sister who regained consciousness when you called her name.
- "I'm fine, but my head hurts" she said trying to get up.
- "DON'T MOVE! I'm going to get you some water" you said running to your room to get your water bottle and your phone, your mom was probably flying right now, so she was not going to get your text. Also, texting her was not the best idea, since she was going to see the text when she landed and was going to panic. You didn't know who to call, but you knew that this was probably because Taylor made herself sick last night, you were unaware that she had just made herself sick again. You quickly called Tree; she picked up after some seconds:
- "Lizzie! Honey! Good morning"
- "Hey Tree. I'm sorry for calling this early, Taylor fainted"
- "What? What happened?" Tree asked as she sprinted to finish getting ready and put her shoes on, she sensed that she needed to head over there.
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Castles crumbling (Taylor Swift's little sister)
FanficTaylor's little sister, Elizabeth, is struggling with an eating disorder. Lizzie is 15 years old and Taylor is desperate to help her. Trigger warning: this story will contain topics related to eating disorders, depression, self harm, anxiety and m...