They see right through me, I see right through me (part 2)

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Since you started going to school your weight gain was slower and since you were going for the whole day two days a week it became even slower. You maintained at last week's weight in and although it wasn't ideal, you were eating everything at the treatment center with little use of behaviors, so they weren't pushing too hard on it. However, at the next weight in, the one after that theater class, you lost three pounds on Monday's weight in and Dr. Sach sat you down to chat, she was worried.

- "What's going on, Elizabeth?" She asked.

- "Nothing is going on" you shrugged.

- "You lost three pounds and lately you've been gaining consistently, then maintaining. At first, I thought that it was nothing disorder related, but now I'm not so sure"

You just looked at her with a poker face, determined to not break down. You needed to do this. You couldn't stand feeling so left out anymore. Maybe this was going to fix it.

- "You can't lose any weight next week, okay?" The doctor said with a straight face.

You opened your mouth to argue back "or what?" But thankfully you closed it before saying anything out loud. You just nodded silently and waited to be dismissed. The rest of the day went fine with eating, but you were clearly down. When your mom picked you up, Dr. Sach told her about the weight loss while you waited in the waiting room. As soon as you saw your mom come out of the office you knew she was disappointed, but mostly, she was worried. You stayed silent for the whole ride and when you got home, you found Taylor working with Tree.

- "Hey baby!" Taylor said excited when she saw you walk in.

- "Hi" you said hugging her and then hugging Tree.

- "How are you?" Both women said at the same time.

- "Fine. How are you?"

Andrea walked in and sat down, tired.

- "Great, I was thinking that maybe we can order some dinner? You look tired" The blonde said looking at your mom, then she added:

- "Would you like to stay?" Taylor suggested looking at Tree.

They both nodded eagerly, and you just stood there, frozen. You couldn't face ordering dinner, but you couldn't say that either.

- "Yeah, sure" you said trying to keep it cool.

- "I'll just wash my hands and go upstairs to do some homework before dinner if it's okay with you?"

They all nodded, and you prepared to climb the stairs when your mom spoke up: - "Please keep the door open, darling"

- "Okay...." You climbed about three steps before adding: - "Actually, I'll just sit in the backyard to do it, you can keep an eye on me and I'll get some fresh air while reading for Spanish class" you didn't trust yourself upstairs and knew that even when you were exhausted, your head was going to force you to exercise. Plus, being outside in the cold, was going to help you burn some extra calories too.

You went and washed your hands and then went to the table in the backyard, put your AirPods on and read.

- "Okay, tell me what's wrong. You both look exhausted" Taylor asked Andrea referring to you and your mom.

- "She lost three pounds at today's weight in" and look at her, she's so sad again" Andrea said tiredly and looking at you through the window.

- "Oh...I've seen she's more withdrawn but is she losing weight again? That's not good" Taylor replied.

Tree sat there a bit uncomfortable and said nothing.

- "Yeah... Dr. Sach said that since she was going to school two days a week for the whole day, it was normal for the weight in to slow down a bit, last week she maintained but today she lost three pounds. They thought that it was normal at first because she was eating everything at the treatment center with almost no behaviors, same in here...but she must be doing something to compensate"

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