Life Is A Rollercoaster (Ronan Keating / Boyzone / X Factor) fan fiction

Eighty Nine

Vic

"Why the hell didn't you tell me Ro?"

"Tell you what?"

"I don't even know Ro, something that Mick wouldn't tell me..."

"Something majorly important..."

"Something like - there is a possibility of you not being here on Saturday for Jess's birthday?" I said my eyes flashing with anger. I was trying not to scream at him. 

I didn't want Jess to overhear, she was with Ro's dad in the conservatory but I was finding it increasingly hard not to yell at my husband.

Ronan's face paled. I knew at that point it was something major that he'd not bothered to tell me by the look of guilt on his face.

"What is it Ro?" I asked softly. "What is so bad that you can't tell me?" he looked at the floor not wanting to meet my eye.

"Are you seeing someone Ro, is that it?" since the miscarriage he'd barely made a move to touch me, maybe that was why. The thought had crossed my mind before, but I'd not entertained the idea. Now I wasn't so sure.

"Of course I'm not" he shook his head. But I wasn't sure I believed him.

"Or am I that bad that you don't want to speak to me anymore?" I crossed the room and sat down on the sofa, put my head in my hands.

"Of course not. I had been meaning to tell you. But so many things have happened lately. I felt so bad that I wasn't here when you found out you were pregnant, and to make it worse I wasn't here when you lo....." he stopped mid sentence as he saw the tears streaming down my face. 

All I wanted him to do was to hold me and tell me that it would all be ok? But he didn't seem capable of moving.

"Vic. I'm sorry"

"It's the band. We're getting back together"

I gasped as the revelation hit me. It all made sense now, but why the hell had he never once mentioned it?

"Oh my god Ronan. You do what could be the most singularly important thing of your life, and you haven't told me?"

"I'm you wife, or at least I thought I was...."

"Do I mean that little to you?"

"No Vic of course not, but I didn't know how you would react?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'd have been happy for you Ro. I know what those guys mean to you"

"You forget that I've seen how hurt you were when they wouldn't speak to you" I was getting angry now, but I couldn't help it. "Ronan, I know how important the band is to you. I would never have stood of in your way"

"I can't even believe you would think that I wouldn't approve...and what the hell is with you having a meeting on Saturday?"

"Your daughters birthday for god's sake Ronan, and please don't tell me you'd forgotten, because I don't think I could handle that"

"I'm sorry Vic" he said simply, but I could see that he couldn't even offer me an explanation as he looked at the floor.

I looked at him, couldn't hold it in any longer and let the tears fall.

"What's become of us Ro. What happened to the fairytale?" I whispered. "Do you not love me anymore?"

"Of course I do Vic" he protested, but he still looked at the floor, wouldn't look me in the eye. 

And that was the moment it all fell apart.