K-pop Idol Imagines

Heartless (Ryujin)

It had been four months since we started dating.

Shin Ryujin - my girlfriend. It still felt like such a foreign term to me. She was everything I could never imagine myself to be.

Beautiful, charming, charismatic, confident, and strong - not just physically, but mentally too. She was one of the most popular students in our school, while I was always on the sidelines. Ryujin, then and now, was almost everyone's crush. And rightfully so. There was nothing about her that wasn't attractive.

I was one of her many admirers, too.

Our story began the day we literally bumped into each other. She helped me gather my scattered books, apologized repeatedly, and somehow made the hallway - with its buzzing crowd and fluorescent lights - feel like a private world just for us. Later, she ran up to me with a bottle of strawberry juice. The sweetness lingered on my tongue, but it was her warmth that left the real mark.

After school ended that day, Ryujin ran up to me and handed me a bottle of strawberry juice - her favorite, as I later learned. I remember watching her retreating figure as I gripped the bottle a little too tightly, trying to calm my racing heart.

From then on, we started getting more familiar with each other. Though she had plenty of friends, she still checked on me, brought me little things, and talked about her day - and I shared mine too.

Her kindness kept winning me over again and again, until one day I realized I couldn't keep my feelings bottled up anymore. I knew I'd regret it forever if I didn't confess.

Despite being timid, I wanted to be brave - even if it meant getting rejected. I wanted to confess my feelings.

So, I did.

One afternoon during lunch, when Ryujin came to talk to me, I led her to a secluded spot away from everyone's eyes and ears - and confessed. I remember being so flustered that my whole body buzzed with nerves. My eyes darted everywhere except her face, and my fists were clenched tightly at my sides.

The twist? She accepted.

That day, I was certain she'd reject me. But instead, she smiled - so naturally - as if my worries were nothing, and then she hugged me.

Our first hug.

But her acceptance came with one condition - we couldn't let anyone know we were dating.

I agreed.

There was no way I'd give her any reason to break up with me. I just wanted to make the most of our time together - to savor what it felt like to be Shin Ryujin's girlfriend.

Everyone chased her, but I was the one who got her.

Yet, even with that confidence, a shadow of doubt lingered. Why would she date someone like me? She was way out of my league. Was she doing this out of pity?

I didn't know. But I tried my best to stay with her - to respect her condition. And before I realized it, four months had passed.

Still, something about our relationship began to feel off. I was so wrapped up in the joy of having Ryujin as my girlfriend that I didn't notice the growing distance. We stopped meeting as often. Our conversations grew fewer. The silence between us stretched longer.

Whenever I texted her about it, she'd apologize - saying she was busy, that she'd make it up to me soon.

But that "next time" never came.

And then, today, her best friend Chaeryeong found out we were dating - despite all my efforts to keep it hidden.

"I just knew you were dating," Chaeryeong said, and I nearly spit out my banana milk.