The Way You Make Me Feel [z.m.]

Grenade

December 20

I was at the X-Factor USA today for the finale. Demi had invited me and I had accepted the offer.

The boys were going to be performing tonight so I would see get to see them again.

Even though it's been a week, I still didn't understand why Zayn did what he did. He pushed me.

I understood why I mean he didn't know it was me. But he didn't apologize for what he did.

"This is all because of you." He had said.

"Forget you." He spoke before he left.

Why didn't he explain to me why he had done what he did? Why did he ignore how he was feeling? Why didn't he admit that he was jealous when Justin had kissed me?

So many questions, but no answers.

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"He didn't say anything, Mickey. He didn't speak for the rest of the night." Harry explained as we waited backstage of the X-Factor. "We tried talking to him but he wouldn't budge."

I sighed heavily. "It's okay, thank you though for trying."

"If you want to talk to me so bad, why don't you?" A familiar voice said behind me.

I turned around and faced Zayn. His hair was pushed down to the side while he wore a white shirt and a blazer over it along with black pants and white shoes.

"Because even though I try to talk to you, you don't say how you're feeling." I told him, crossing my arms.

"Why do you care?" Zayn copied my actions.

"Because I care about you Zayn."

Zayn gave a laugh and shook his head. "Yeah, whatever."

He was about to walk away until I called after him. "Why don't you believe that I still care?! That I still love you?!"

I knew that we were making a scene because everyone was watching us. I could even feel Harry pulling on my arm to stop. But I couldn't.

Zayn turned around for one last look before walking away. "You're lying."

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The show was great. The boys performed Kiss You and Tate Stevens had won and everyone was congratulating him backstage.

I was with Demi, Niall, and Harry backstage in Demi's dressing room. Both Demi and Niall were standing, him with his arms wrapped around her while Harry and I sat on the couch.

"He's a fucking asshole. I'll be back, I have to go kick his ass." Demi was about to leave but Niall pulled her back.

"Princess, don't. I know how you feel but this will be all over the Internet." Niall spoke into her ear.

"Niall's right,Demi." I told her. "I appreciate how much you care but don't. Zayn's an ass and he just showed me how there was no love after all."

No love.

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The rest of the night I plainly ignored Zayn and just danced with the Fifth Harmony girls and Harry, Demi, and Niall. I would've with Liam and Louis but they were with Zayn and I wanted to keep my distance.

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December 21

"Hello?" I picked up the phone.

"Mickey!" Safaa yelled through the phone.

"Hey baby, what's up?"

"Who is it?" Justin whispered across from me. We were at a restaurant for a "date" and were seated outside.

"Safaa." I told him.

"Oh." He nodded. He knew who Safaa was. He had sent her a birthday message when it was her birthday. She was a huge belieber so Zayn asked Justin to give her a message as a birthday gift.

"Mickey?" Safaa asked.

"Yes baby?"

"Guess what guess what guess what?!" She said excitedly.

I laughed at her enthusiasm. "What?"

"Zayn bought us a new house!!"

"Oh really?" I asked her.

"Yes, it's huge and white and grey and mummy loves it!!"

"That's great."

"Will you come and visit us?" She asked after she had calmed down.

"Someday." I told her.

"But soon, okay?"

I laughed again. "Soon, I promise."

"Okay well I have to go Mickey, I love you!"

"I love you too Safaa."

"Bye!"

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December 24

Today was Louis' twenty first birthday and Harry planned him a birthday party.

He invited me so I took a flight to the UK so I could go to the party. I didn't want to go alone so I brought Colby along with me.

Demi would've come but she was on vacation after she had worked so hard on the X-Factor.

I arrived at the party and soon saw Harry.

"Harry!" I called him.

He was suited in a black suit and tie. He turned at the call of his name and walked over to me. "Hey babe."

I rolled my eyes at his flirting. "Shut up loser. Where's the birthday boy?"

Harry pointed at Louis in the corner of the party room with Eleanor, Danielle, and Liam. "Over there."

I nodded and walked over to them with Harry. "Hey guys."

"Ay! You made it!" Louis cheered as he wrapped his arms around me in a hug.

I laughed. "Of course I did. How could I miss the sassy master's birthday?"

"Thanks babe."

"Are you getting drunk Mackenzie?" Eleanor asked me.

"No." I shook my head. "I'm flying back to LA at midnight for Christmas with my dad and grandma."

She nodded. "Alright but you'll be missing all the fun." She teased.

"Hey! We're going to be sober but we'll definitely have fun!" Liam exclaimed.

"Totally." Danielle agreed.

"Two teams then." Harry said. "Lou, El, and me versus Dani, Li, and Mick."

"It's on."

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We've been partying for five full hours. Danielle, Liam, and I managed to stay sober while Eleanor, Louis, and Harry were drunk.

Harry and Louis were pole dancing while Eleanor was telling Danielle and I about her unicorn fantasies.

Anyways, I left the party at eleven thirty while I said good bye to everyone. Getting Colby, I then got on the car I called for and then headed towards the airport.

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Fuck fuck fuck this can't be happening.

I fucking missed my flight. Now what was I supposed to do?

I had no choice but to go outside and think of something and somewhere to sleep for the night. Colby was whimpering, poor baby must've been cold.

All of the flights were booked except for tomorrow at nine at night.

I was thinking of calling Harry but I was pretty sure he and the others were still at Louis' party.

So who do I call now?

I was about to call for a hotel and a can until I heard someone call me.

"Mackenzie?"

Zayn.