There’s these things I want to say
But I don’t know how to say them
Empty words but written promises
I wish I could say when I could say on paper
It’s not as hard as I make it
The thing is
It just doesn’t flow as well.
Even if you’re in the room I’ll write it
But saying it may take another day
This is going to be harder than I thought
I say as I try to read the words
But for some reason I have this feeling
I just can’t make it work
There’s these things I want to say
To you because I know you’ll listen
But the problem is that I can’t speak
I would tell you about the world if I could
I’m sorry that I couldn’t tell you everything
But I know you’re okay when I am silent
There are times when I wish you would speak to me
But now I feel the that the phase is about to flip over
The way I used to feel
The longing that I feel
You’ll feel like I’m leaving you
Because I’m tempted to do so
Even though I know I need you
I want to go out into the world
And I know that unless I try
I won’t get anywhere in this world
I’m sorry to say
But I feel like if I stop
That’s when you’ll speak
So, Good bye isn’t a word in my vocabulary
But for you
See you later
May be the case
Because it used to be
I’ll be back soon
Or
It used to be
I hope to see you again
But now
I’m tired
And my hearts hurt way too much
I’m pretty sure
That we’ve evened out by now
Through the years that I treated you like shit
And the time that I’ve hurt myself because I did
Through the crying that I’ve done because I’ve needed you
And the times that you cried because I abandoned you
I’m sure that at this point
After two years
And then three more afterward
Two to experience the world
Together
And then after that
For the next three years
Three to recover
But now I’m being pushed
I hurt you too much
The worst mistake of my life
I guess I’ll just live it up
As much as I want you in my life
I rather not try
Any more than I already have
Because I’ve put you through so much
And that’s why I’ve lost the will to fight
I’ve lost the will to fight the tears
I’ve lost the will to run
After you
Anymore
I did something wrong
And I know that I did
And I know that I may not ever be forgiven
But I know what I’ve done
And if I accept the fact that I did it
It won’t hurt me anymore
And it wont have the ability to be used against me
So I’ll try it again
So here’s the last thing I have to say
I’ve been holding onto you for a while
And now that we’ve taken a break
If I’m still an infection in your heart
Then I’ll try to heal it with time
Because I want this to be done.
