I feel bad
Partly
But I don’t love her
I love you
And that’s what’s confused me
What I’ve done with her isn’t love
It’s fun
It’s not an emotional connection like you
It’s a physical attachment
And that’s where I’m confused
I shouldn’t be doing this
I love you so
Her?
It’s just for the time because I can
And the fact that we can’t
I guess that’s another thing
I hope that I can take you to a dance
That would be amazing
More amazing than words
To take you
And be
With you on the floor
Holding hands
Taking steps
One, two, and three
To waltz with you
To joke around and do some moves
To take you on a journey that I’ve taken only a few
It’s fun to dance
Oddly to say
I wouldn’t want anyone else to know
But I like to dance
Is that gay in anyway?
No.
It’s just something that I like to do
Something that I’d love to do with you
To take you in my arms
In a slow song
Whisper how much I love you
With her it’s completely different
We’ve danced
But it’s not romantic
Not at all
She gives me this assurance
That she’ll be there for me
It’s because I’ve done this for her
And really the friends that have that feeling
Those are the ones that I want to keep
I don’t want us to end
But I won’t stay here for you
You know this
And I hate to admit
That as much as I love you, you can’t stop me from this
I have this passion
And it’s burning immensely
It won’t go out
You see
I want us to be
But your parents say without doubt
That I’m not a good influence
That I’m not ‘the real deal’
Say what they want
I’ll ALWAYS be here
For you
For her
I don’t care
My friends are the people I never let go
The oldest
The youngest
The new
The honest
The trustworthy
Who knows?
Only I will continue to stay by their side to find out
So who will you be for me?
I don’t want to promise anything
But here’s the thing
It’s the only way
To get people to understand
What’s worth my time
I never gave it a thought
I just walked away when I didn’t like the thought
But this situation I’ve gotten in
Amazed to say that I haven’t hurt you
Not that you know
And I don’t want to keep a secret
But I do love you
Not her
I hope you understand this at the least
I love you
Not anyone else
And this addiction I have
It’s physical
Not emotional at the least.
