Mean Girls and Bad Boys

✓ CHAPTER 10: Hatred

Emi

4 years ago ..

I was just a nerd when I was grade 6. Everyone hates me. They keep bullying me but I don't care about those things. I managed to go to school cause I'm inspired. Yeah, I am Inspired. I have a crush on a famous guy, Travinz Davia.

Makapal ang mukha ko noon. Sa harap niya, binibigyan ko siya ng gifts at minsan nakikipagkaibigian ako sa kanya pero ayaw niya. I became his stalker. Informations about him, alam ko. Di naman sa pinapahiya niya ako, kada lalapitan ko siya para bigyan ng regalo, lalagpasan lang niya ako tapos sasabihin niya sakin na ibigay ko nalang dun sa bodyguard niya. Alam kong masyado pa kong bata sa mga ganito pero kasi matagal ko siyang crush at gusto kong maging kaibigan ko siya. Minsan, niyaya ko siyang pumasyal, maglaro sa playground etc. Pero lahat yun, declined. Hindi niya tinanggap.

One Day, I went to his birthday party with my bodyguard. He was having a conversation with his cousins. Dahil nga sa makapal ang mukha ko, nilapitan ko siya. I'm just going to give this cake. Ako pa nga ang nag-bake nito para sa kanya. But .. he didn't accept it. Not just that ..

"CAN YOU STOP FOLLOWING ME? YOU ARE DISTRACTING ME. YOU ARE JUST AN UGLY NERD GIRL. I DON'T LIKE YOU AND PLEASE STOP GIVING GIFTS TO ME. YOU ARE JUST GIVING ME CHEAP GIFTS." tapos tinabig niya yung cake then he walked out. Sinipa niya pa yung white table na kung saan nakalagay yung mga sinerve na food.

That was too much. I looked around. Nagbubulungan na sila. Yung iba pinagtatawanan pa ako. Tears started to fall from my eyes.

After that incident, Mom and I went to America to consult there. The doctor said that I was having a different heart cancer. It was all because that I stay at my room plus there was no air inside. Why? Because I feel embarrassed from that party. Tss! I shouldn't be emoting that thing.

This time, I will come back to the school. Being proud to myself and I'll stop being a nerd. They must know the new me. The new me that they keep bullying and the new me na pinahiya ni Travinz Davia sa lahat ng bisita niya. Let's see who will be the one feeling guilty.

After the day I came back here in Philippines, I became new. I curl my hair and remove my big nerdy eyeglasses. I cut my skirt to above the knee and my blouse was fitted on me. Even though I'm elementary, I'll do fashion.

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Pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko ng gate, hinahabulan ako ng tingin ng mga tao sa campus. Sinadya ko talagang sa gitna dumaan para malaman ng lahat na ito ang totoong itsura ng taong binubully nila.

Biglang may lumapit na tatlong babae. Sila yung madalas na nambubully sakin.

"Are you new here?" mataray na tanong sakin ni Stella.

"No." taas kilay kong sagot.

Hindi nako magpapatalo sa mga taong tulad nila. Hindi sila yung ineexpect kong harapin. Ang gusto ko yung taong nagpahiya sakin. Ipaparamdam ko lang naman sa kanya yung feeling ng napapahiya.

"You're not new here and maybe you know us. You have guts to walk in the center of the campus. Don't you know that this is our territory?" taas-noong sabi ni Brittany.

I stood up properly and breath in and out.

"Knowing you three was just a waste of time. And what did you say? This is your territory? Wow! I've never seen a garbage-like territory before. And because you're the one who owns this campus, can you please try cleaning it sometimes cause it's giving damn dirt to my white skin?"

Aalis na sana ako kaso may naalala ako. Binalikan ko sila at binigyan ko ng sampal ang isa sa kanila

"That's for calling me janitor last time. Don't you see that you are more a janitress than me? Watch your words, Okay?! You'll never know the people you were bullying was more scarier than YOU."

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I almost forgot. Classmate ko pala si Decliner. Tssk. Halos lahat dito napapagkamalan akong new student. Hirap talaga kapag gumanda yung nerd.

Pumasok na yung adviser namin.

"Is Castrez Present?"

I hurriedly raise my hands and they all looked at me. Reaction nila? Ang lalaki ng mga mata nila. I look at Travinz. He is also shocked. I rolled my eyes at him.

I stood up and walk at the center, direct to the teacher's table. I gave her my excuse slip. Well, I've been absent for 3 weeks. Nandun na rin sa sulat na huwag ipagsasabi kahit kanino yung tungkol sa sakit ko.

Iniwan ko na siya at aakmang aalis na may tinanong si maam.

'Wait, Are you really Noemi?"

Automatically, tumaas kilay ko.

"Tatayo ba ko kung hindi ako si NOEMi LEEN CASTREZ? Maam, brains please?!" I rolled my eyes at her and went back to my proper sit.

That's the NEW me. Naging maldita ako and also became a Model when I turned high school.

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That past keeps on distracting me everytime I see his face. Kada makikita ko siya, lumalabas yung tapang ko at gusto kong ipamukha ko sa kanya kung gaano kalakas yung galit ko sakanya.

Sa ngayon, magkasama kaming dalawa dito sa loob. Hindi ako nakatingin sa kanya. Bumabalik nanaman yung kahinaan ko.

"Leen .."

"I'm sorry"

Dinilat ko yung mata ko and I was shock when I saw na paiyak na siya.

Am I dreaming?

He is crying in front of me.