Carleen's POV
I am still sleeping when I received a call from Nikka. Nako si buntis antamad na talaga. Dati rati pag may kailangan sya, pumupunta pa sya dito sa unit ko, ngayon ptawag tawag na lang.
*** Nikkaela Seigfreid Calling***
Me: Hello buntis! Whyie?
Nikka: Carls--- uhggg --- help-- ahhhh
Me: Hello? Hello Nikka?? Hello!
Nabagsak ang telepono nya pero dinig ko ang mga sigaw nya. Natakot ako tuloy, baka kung anong nangyayari sa kanya. Tinawagan ko si Kuya! Shocks! antagal nya sumagot! Nagdodoorbell na ako sa unit nila. Halos sirain ko na. Walang nagbubukas. Katok, doorbell, katok na mas malakas. Lahat na ginawa ko para pagbuksan ako ni Nikka. Dumating naman si Kuya na parang nagjogging.
"Carleen, it's too early to bother my wife."
"Ano ka ba! May emergency! She called me! She's asking for help! Buksan mo na bilis!!!"
Pagbukas ni Jake ng pinto tumakbo na kaming dalawa. Nakita na lang namin si Nikka na nakahiga, walang malay at maraming dugo.
We hurriedly rushed her to the hospital. Napakabigat ng ulo ko. Nakatulala si Kuya Jake sa tabi ng pinto ng emergency room.
"Who's with the patient?"
"I'm the husband."
"We need you to sign the waiver. We'll remove the baby out."
"What?! Why???"
"The baby's dead. We need to remove the baby from your wife's womb to prevent complications."
"Whaa-- No! The baby's fine just 2 days ago! What happened? No! Not my son. Oh God!"
"Sorry sir, we need you to sign the waiver to be able to save your wife. "
Kuya Jake signed the waiver while he was crying. Lumapit na lang ako sa kanya at niyakap sya. He won't speak any single word. He's damn pained.
Kaela's POV
I woke up in a very white room. Mabigat ang pakiramdam ko. Masakit na masakit ang ulo.
"You're awake sweetheart." Narinig ko ang boses ni Jake.
His eyes were swollen. Magtatanong sana ako kung bakit nang maalala ko ang nangyari. Kinapa ko agad ang tyan ko.
"God! No. Sweetheart, where's our son?"
Umiyak na din si Jake. Oh my God! Why?! What happened to my son? Maayos naman sya 2 days ago. Kahapon nga gumagalaw pa sya.
Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak. Hindi ko matanggap. Bakit? Inalagaan ko namang mabuti ang sarili ko. Ginawa ko naman ang lahat.
Jake's here beside me. Hugging me tight.
"I'm sorry sweetheart."
"It's not your fault."
"It is. I failed. I failed our son. I failed you."
"Shhhh. It isn't. Please be well soon. We need to give our angel the final rites he deserved."
Nagpakatatag ako so I could see my son for the first and last time. Nothing hurts more than this.
Dinala sa kwarto ang baby namin. He was so small but he was sure beautiful. He was my dream and now, he's gone. I touched him and I felt his soft skin. I hold his tiny hands and feet. I kissed him. I don't want to let go.
"Baby, why did you leave Mommy so soon?"
"He'll never leave you Mommy. He'll be an angel looking at you."
"I'm sorry baby. I'm so sorry."
The nurses came back and get the little baby from us.
"Sweetheart, we'll send him go his new home now. Are you ready?"
"I will never be ready."
My husband hugged me.
"I know. Me too. But he deserves peace. Let's give our angel that gift and send him back to The Lord with our love."
Pinayagan akong lumabas ng doctor for a short period of time. Given na babalik din ako agad. I don't know how Jake arranged everything that fast pero he was able to ask a priest for blessing of our little guy and he's able to pay a cemetery where we will send our baby.
Carleen was with us nung dinala namin si Baby Jacob sa chapel for a small prayer and blessing of his soul. Si Jake muna ang bumaba at nang maayos na ang lahat, tsaka nya ako pinuntahan ulit sa kotse. My baby has a cute blue green coffin pero kahit pa gaanong kaganda o kacute yun, ayaw ko nun.
The priest blessed the baby's soul. He also prayed for our strength. It was a brief ceremony yet it was too painful. After the chapel, Jake and Carleen guided me out. Sumakay kami ulit sa kotse.
"What flowers do you want to give to our son?" Jake
"Buy him daisies."
Jake willingly oblige. Naiwan lang kami ni Carleen sa loob ng kotse. The final time has come, it was our time to say goodbye to our little guy. Everything was so brief yet it was so painful.
"A moment in our arms, forever in our hearts"
Jacobo Juan A. Seigfreid
After we send our baby to his final resting place, Jake asked me to leave.
"Sweetheart, we need to go back to the hospital."
"I don't want yet. He'll be alone if we leave."
"Sweetheart, I know he'll never be alone. He was with Papang already. We'll come back soon as your well. I promise."
Kahit ayoko, wala naman akong magagawa. The only thing I can do right now is to accept that this happened. On our way back to the hospital, I cried and cried and cried until I can't feel the pain anymore.
