Nikka
"Sweetheart, are we not going to tell your children?"
"What for?"
"For they are your children."
Jake sighed and hold my hands.
"Let's not bother them."
I closed my eyes. Ipagwawala ni Akim at Annika kapag nalaman nilang nag stroke ang Daddy nila at ayaw nyang ipaalam ito sa lahat.
"Don't you want to be checked by your daughter?"
Jake smiled.
"I am okay."
"Jake!"
"Sweetheart, you need to promise me one thing."
"I don't want."
He chuckled too.
"Please promise me that when the time comes, I do not want to be resuscitated. I want things to happen naturally."
"How about me?"
Jake smiled again.
"You stay for awhile."
"Jake!"
"I'm not leaving yet, I just want to remind you that I do not want to be in pain, I do not want tensions. I don't want you to cry a lot for me."
"Do you think I can stop my tears then?"
"No, but I think you can just smile and tell me, you won."
"Jake."
"Sweetheart, I love you so much. Do you know that?"
"I know."
"I always tell you leave, I will marry someone else."
Jake laughed.
"You cannot do that."
"Why not?"
"You love me too much."
"You're too confident huh."
"I love you too Sweetheart, so so much."
Jake was able to recover and went out of the hospital but unfortunately, some weeks after, he had another serious attack. This time, it's more serious than ever because he was on comatose. This time, I am afraid this would be the day I do not want to come.
Lukas and Traea were around me all the time. Si Traea hindi na ako hiniwalayan pero parang mas sya pa yung mawawalan ng buhay sa akin dahil sya ang ayaw magpahinga.
"Mommy!!"
Dapat malungkot ako pero nung makita ko si Akim na tumatakbo, parang nakikita ko ang batang sya na ayaw mawalay sa Mommy nya. Ang bilis ng panahon, sobrang bilis.
Akim hugged me like a toddler lost and just found his mother.
"Mi."
"Hush,.."
Akim is still hugging me when I saw Dana behind him.
"Are you okay Dana?"
"Mommy, we should be asking you that instead."
Dana hugged me too.
"I am okay, Dana. You should not strain yourself so much ha?"
"Mommy, you should not get stressed too much."
"Well, I am not."
A few more hours, Matti and Mara with Annika and Gino were here. All were clinging to me like little kids. Little kids with their own little kids, may mga apo na nga akala mo pa rin ay mga bata.
