memoir(^○^)

(38) - more than gravity

there's not a simple explanation
for the things that i feel
there's no one word to
tell you why i do the things that i do.

i don't need you, i just want you.

i can't love you, i'm too scared to.

it's not a trick that's up my sleeve, it's just the heart inside me
and i spent so much time fighting the man that i am trying to be,
keep saying, i can't give in,
i'm too proud
to think what i can't say out loud.

don't know what this is,
but i'm feeling it.
try keeping distance but
i got more than gravity pulling me.

it's not a simple situation
that i found myself in
another conversation with myself
i keep avoiding.
you say run but i can't hear you
something bigger keeps me near you.

i tried to ignore it,
tried to be strong
i said i'd never feel what
i felt that long
and now it's 2 am and i'm drunk
and i'm calling you,
and i can't fall asleep,

it's times like this you gotta face the truth ;

i think i need somebody,
i think that's you.

-- and i got more than gravity pulling me right towards you. lyrics from 'more than gravity' by colin & caroline, one of so many songs from netflix original series; thirteen reasons why.