Broken (A Josh Hutcherson Imagine)

Chapter 48

*Josh's POV* "Who's that girl on your dresser?" Savannah asks out of nowhere. My head whips over to the dresser where I know the photo of Claudia and I on our anniversary sits. I can't believe I forgot to get rid of that picture. It's not that I still want it there. I practically break down every time I see a picture of her anywhere, let alone in my own bedroom. I just forgot it was there. Until I heard her say those six simple words. "Um, that is uh, my ex-girlfriend. her name's Claudia." I say quietly, not wanting to think about her as Savannah is laying her in my arms. "Why have you never talked about her?" Savannah asks me softly. This clearly hurt her feelings and that alone is enough to hurt mine. "I uh, I don't know, it's not that I was trying to hide her or anything. It's just that I don't really like to talk, or think about her." I answer. "Then why is her picture sitting very visible on your dresser just feet from where you sleep every single night. "Sav you have to realize something." I say, "Today was the first day I was home for a month. Before that I was busy. I was at home visiting, I had a few auditions, and just a week or so before that we broke up. It's not that I kept it there purposely, I just hadn't realized that I was still there." She sighs and I try to tell if she's on the verge of tears or it's just me. "Okay." She says, and for a second I think that's all she's going to say, but then she continues, "I can't be mad at you for that. It's just, I thought maybe that you, were still.. Um, I guess I just kind of jumped to the conclusion that you didn't wanna forget her or something." I breathlessly laugh, little does she know it's the total opposite. "I wish I could forget her. I uh, for a long time I couldn't even look at a picture of her without crying. I kinda wish that picture was already gone so I don't have to look at it up close." I say, trying not to give away my terrible feelings for her. "What did she do that makes you want to cry?" Savannah asks me. Should I tell her, should I make something up? Oh what's it gonna hurt. "Oh it's just um, well after we dated for well over a year, I um, I went to Spain to surprise her, and when I got to her apartment, I um. Well I walked in on her cheating on me with this guy she had sworn was just her friend, countless times." I say, stumbling over my words. I still don't tell that story well, but I don't have much practice, the shame I feel telling it is probably worse that the shame she felt doing it. "Oh Josh, I'm so sorry." Savannah says to me. "No it's okay, really. I mean if that wouldn't have happened my life could have been totally different. And you wouldn't be my girlfriend right now. I was unhappy in that relationship anyway." Savannah leans up and kisses my jaw, and eventually our lips find each others. We lay in his bed there kissing for awhile, and she shifts so that she's straddling my legs. "God you're beautiful." I say between kisses. "God you're handsome." She responds. And although I know there won't be reciprocation, I say "I love you, Savannah." This time however, she stops kissing my briefly and looks me in the eyes saying "I love you too, Josh."