Fat Girls Romance

Everything's My Fault

"On trial for our fates, We are the runaways, Out of place with mistakes we never made, Because all we are to anyone, is just a runaway, So fate found a day to take it all away, Cut down and encased inside a cage, Because all we are to anyone, is just a runaway" -Crown The Empire, "Runaway"

      I'm sick of it. I wanna run away. I wanna get away from these mistakes I never made. All my mom does is yell and bitch about everything. My dad just doesn't give a fuck about anything. My mom uses me and my brother as her therapists since we have no money for her to see one. Our house is literally falling apart, one thing at a time. My mom yells at me when I try to say something. I'm over it. I could just be standing in the room and she starts yelling at me for something I didn't even do. When I try to say something they yell at me to go away. I was just standing there with my brother today and they yell at me to go away. He can stay, but I have to leave. They don't want me around. If they don't want me here then I can be somewhere else. On the street or with another family member. To be honest the street would be better than this house. My parents are always arguing. My mom threatens to get a divorce, but she never actually leaves. I can't remember a time when there wasn't a fight between them every day. I wish they would get a divorce. I don't know who I would want to live with. My mom is always yelling and she's blaming for things that someone else did. My dad is the same way, but he's bipolar and he would literally be watching a movie with me and then start yelling for me to leave him alone and go upstairs. I would probably choose to live with my aunt over either of my parents. To be honest I don't like either of them. 

      I hate being told to go away when I' just trying to help. I've tried to get a job to help out with money, but I'm only 14 and every place near me says you have to be 16 or older. I guess I have no choice, but to deal with the cards that I've been dealt.