Fat Girls Romance

So Mean

"I know you'll write me off

I know you're always gonna count me out

You think I'm gonna let you down"

-Slaves, "I'd Rather See your Star Explode"

      I am so tired of hearing people say things about weight. I just wanna scream at everyone and tell them it's not the size of the person in the fight, it's the size of the fight in the person. I know that I am fat. I am ugly. No guy would ever want me. What makes me different from everybody else is I have heart and it allows me to see past all the shit people say and move on with my life. If I listen to every negative thing I hear in my life, I will never live. I know that there are many negative things to say about me and as long as I'm aware of what those negativities are, I can't be hurt by them because I've already said those things about myself and accepted it. 

      My life is just killing me lately. I can't even explain how I'm feeling because I don't even know how I'm feeling myself. My brother keeps calling me fat and trying to find other ways to say I'm fat that he know will hurt my feelings, my dad was off the pills for a while, but all good things must come to an end, we're having money problems, mom wants a divorce because of the pills and money, mom wants to move, and I'm entirely stressed about school. 

      I know one thing and that is that I'm fucking over life right now.

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