"I can't change, I can't change
The way I had left you all alone
I don't ever want to see you fall again
I'm not saying, I'm not saying
That I can make it all ok
I'm just wanting you to hear me say
I don't ever want to see you fall"
-Awaken I am, "Blind Love"
I recently bitched about how my life was going. I am sad to say nothing has really changed. No one answers my phone calls either and I just wonder about the friends I have because what if them answering the fucking phone was the difference between living and suicide. Guess what? I would be dead because they do not answer their phones. That person in my life who is struggling with drug abuse has had a relapse and it scares me. When someone is on all of these different dangerous substances they feel numb. They will not feel pain and they will not feel anything. This person recently had to be checked into a full-time facility where we can only visit them twice a week at times where we have things to do. They can no longer run their business anymore and my brother will not do it, so it all falls on me. I have been putting my whole life into helping this person when they are supposed to be taking care of me. Everything falls on me. I do not know what to do.
I am angry and upset at the same time. My family is trying to get me to go to meetings and counselors, but I have no intention of doing any of that. The visiting hours at the place are during the time where I have to do his job and during the time where I have to be somewhere else. I feel so lost.
What the fuck do I do?
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