Fat Girls Romance

I want a change

"Everybody wants to change the world

But one thing's clear

No one ever wants to change themselves

That's the way things are

All because we hate the buzzkill

Jaded when we need to feel

But we can change it all if you really want it"

-Nothing More, "Do You Really Want It?"

      I never saw myself being the way I am. I am a huge bitch. I am extremely dirty-mouthed. I am fat as fuck. We big bitches have to stick together. I want a change. 

      I do not want to be fat anymore. I want more confidence. I want to join a gym. I want to be healthier. I want more determination. More motivation. I want someone to give a little fuck. I want a fucking change. 

      I want to be able to see. I am blind as a motherfucking bat with y current glasses and I am blessed with headaches every day because my eyes do not work with these glasses anymore. 

      I am so over everyday bullshit. Like I am trying to get my shit together but it is a two-way street and I can not do it without everybody else changing too. I want a change that is for the better. I want my brother to change. I want my parents to change. Fuck it. I want everyone to change. Normal families do not comment on someone's weight. My family does and sees no problem in doing so. No matter how much either person feels like shit. I always hear "you're just getting fatter", "fatty", "you look huge", "you eat like a pig", "stop eating so much retard". That is what my family calls me sometimes, "retard". I am not retarded. Nobody is retarded. I am fat, I know that I do not need to be told that.  Give it a fucking rest. This is my fucking family. People wonder why I strongly despise my family. That is why. They are so judgemental of me that they do not even realize how upset I am with them. Then they wonder why I am so rude and such a bitch. It is because you are rude and such bitches. I fight fire with fire. If I burn they burn too. 

Onlinegirl0404 becoming Offlinegirl0404 PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!