"Is there anybody out there
Looking out for me?
Just say you want me
Just say you need me
Is there anybody out there
Looking out for me?
Does anybody need me?
Is every last soul just fucking me over?
With tears on their shoes
And ice on their shoulders
Is there anybody out there
Looking out for me?
-Badflower, "The Jester"
Everyone has that feeling at least once in their life. If you do not, then you are not human. We all feel like no one is looking out for us at some point in our miserable lives. Some of us feel that every day. We feel completely fucked because we are stuck in one place. I feel fucked. I am stuck in a shit school, my personal problems are all ver the fucking place, and my brain can not focus anymore. Everything is fucked. Everybody sucks.
I feel like everyone can strongly relate to the lyrics above because all of us have some shit we have to deal with and this is the way most of us probably feel all the time. That song made me realize that even people with amazing lives in my point of view, still feel fucked up. We are all fucked up. None of us can change that. You just have to own it.
My mom and my aunt recently decided that it is time for me and my brother to see a counselor because apparently our personal family problems are things adults should deal with and we teenagers should not. I do not need a fucking counselor. I have my shit together. Just because my life could not keep its shit together does not mean that I can not. If you ask me I am doing just fine without a counselor. If you wanna fight me on that I fucking dare you to try. I handle my shit on my own and I do not want anyone's help. They would be useless considering I am the problem. Most of my life I have known I am the problem. To my parents, I am the equivalent of fucking satan. I accept it now and I embrace it and act even worse than I did before. They just need a little more torture in their lives, since they made mine torture. Torturing people is fun, you should try it sometime.
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