Fat Girls Romance

Forgotten

"Six feet from the bottom

I'm drowning in the water

Will I reach the air that keeps me here?

Or will I be forgotten?"

-From Ashes to New, "Forgotten"

      No matter what I feel like I'm always forgotten in the family. Everyone forgets my birthday. They don't know what I'm interested in. They forgot to spend the time to get to know me. They don't understand that I'm not like other girls. 

      The stereotype for girls is pink, glitter, makeup, and dresses. They get up 2 hours early every morning to apply makeup and get their hair looking like a fucking masterpiece. They wear dresses every day because they can't look like a hippie for one day in their life. Then there's me. 

      I'm more like black, flames, messy hair, and racing. That's the complete opposite of the stereotypical girl. I like cars. I wear mostly black. I hate pink and glitter. I refuse to wear a dress and can't stand being in a store where dresses are sold. I don't wear makeup because then I feel like I'm hiding an important piece of who I am.

      This is why I'm forgotten. I'm completely different than everybody in my family. I'm not respectful either, I'm not even nice. Now I'm starting to understand why I'm forgotten. I would be completely invisible if I weren't so fat. 

      Let me make fun of myself real quick. I'm so fat I have to lift up my fat to shave the top of my legs. That's a problem. I'm so fat that people run away screaming "there's an elephant trying to kill me". I got that off my chest. 

      I'm going to go hate myself some more where people can't read about it. Bye.