Fat Girls Romance

The usual

"The truth is, you turn into someone else
You keep running like the sky is falling
I can whisper, I can yell
But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
I'm just talking to myself" -Linkin Park, "Talking To Myself"

I walk into school nearly late. I do that on purpose so I don't have to sit in the auditorium with the rest of my grade. I go straight up to my locker and unpack my things as quickly as possible. I will occasionally wait for my first 3 to 4 acquaintances to meet me at Ariana's locker, which is 1 locker down from mine.

I'll wait there and talk to Ariana until everyone else has unpacked at their locker and made their way over to hers. You're probably wondering who I mean by everyone else. Everyone else is Sean, Beth, and Jess. That's my squad, I guess.

Me and Jess are the ones who usually get left out. Recently it's only been me getting left out. Every time I've talked on the phone with Ariana and Beth they always say that Jess is boring and she doesn't bring anything new to our group. I have to agree but still, I'm tired of feeling left out.

I sit with Miduna in Science now. Since we are sitting in groups of 2 and Sean and Ariana sit together. Once again left out. It's fine, I don't really care. I like being on my own.

Then we get to lunch. Lunch causes most of my troubles. I go up and get my lunch. Then I sit down and eat at my table of acquaintances. No one talks to me so I sit there and stare off into space. Or I sit there inside of my head. And if you know anything about me, my head is a dangerous place that I should not be inside of.

Then ELA, language arts. I sit behind Donte in that class and most of the time in front of Adithya. Unless Adithya decides to argue with me about the seating arrangement, like he does most days. I don't enjoy having an argument during class about a stupid seat.

Then gym/health. The place I feel most insecure. I have been bullied because of gym class. Health class is a whole different story. I like health most days. Only the days when we watch the fosters and watch movies and videos.

Then math. The best class of them all even though the classroom is like a sauna. By the way my school doesn't have air conditioning so, I'm dead.

Then we go home. The best part of the day. I get on the bus with my 16 yr. old brother, Joey. When we get home I take care of 2 dogs, he handles 1 and then he poops while I watch videos.

At 4 I take a shower. I like to shower early so there's not an argument between everyone in my family battling to bath at night. It's easier that way.

Short chapter I know but wait for the next it will be so much better.