"I'm too deep to believe I can face myself
It's hard not to give up when you go through hell
Woah oh oh, oh oh oh
I'm trapped in my skin, this is my prison"
-Wage War, "Prison"
Lately, I feel like I have been trapped in my own skin. Like I am stuck and can not get out. I am losing a grip on reality and falling inside my mind. I am my own prison.
Recently this boy messaged me on Instagram. He said "Hi" I replied with the same. He said I am cute and we got to talking. He asked me 3 times in 3 days to be his girlfriend. YOu guys know I have a lot going on and I feel like I am walking all alone in it. He pressured me into saying yes and I am not ready to date anybody. I said can it wait until we graduate high school because I am not looking for a relationship right now. He got mad and could not stand him being mad at me so I said fine but we have to keep it on the low. No one can know. I am telling you guys but you won't say anything, right? Tell me I fucked up bad because I did. Bury me alive and run over the grave with a truck. I got pressured into dating this boy and I have never met him in m life Tel me I am a jackass. I am. I accept the reality. He was very pushy and getting irritating but I think I like him. I have never dated anyone before and I do not think I really wanted to. I am very independent and I like being on my own. He is very affectionate and I don't know how to handle it because no one has ever said that stuff to me before. It's like when Sean said he cared about me and was there for me, I don't fucking know what to say, no one has ever said that stuff to me before.
The reality is I like Sean. I hate to admit it but I fucking like him. I might even love him. I know I am only 15 and I am fucking talking about love although I don't know what the fuck love is. If Sean ever breaks up with Beth I will be here waiting. I will always be here waiting. He was the first person to say he cared about me and it really means everything to me. Tell me how to fix this. Give me some advice. Please.
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Fat Girls Romance
Non-FictionGrace is an overweight teenager. She has acquaintances, not friends. She has crushes but shut them down when she sees what they are really like. All Grace wants is romance, but she feels that she will never get it because she is overweight. This is...
