memories | shawn mendes

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3rd July 2019

"Hi mummy." I said to my mum as I pulled her into the biggest hug I had ever given her.

"I've missed you darling.." she rocked up softly side to side

"Where's amber?" I asked as we both pulled away.

"I'm here!!!!!" She came running down hugging me almost pushing me to the floor. "You need to tell me everything!!!!!!!" She shouted

"Where's Shawn?" Mum asked

Mum and Shawn haven't seen each other properly since we broke up. "in the car, we just came to drop me off." I looked behind my shoulder and out into the window to see if he was still there

"Well tell him to come in!!" She smiled and chuckled

I don't think my mum had any anger towards him as he was one of the main people who helped me get through dads death.

"I can ask, but I don't know if he will." I put my shoes back on and made my way outside.

"Mum asked if you wanna come in." I said after he rolled down the window to the drivers side where I was standing.

"Yeah, I don't mind, I've got nothing to do." Shawn chuckled which was shortly cut off as I joined our lips.

"What was that for?" He smiled up at me

"No reason, I just really love and appreciate you." I bit down on my bottom lip and blushed

"I really love you too." He looked down and smirked

***

We both were in the house and mum stopped both of us. "Before we go into the living room. I need to tell you, Alissa, something."

"Sup mum?" I asked

"Do you want me to tell or show you?" She asked

"Does amber know?" I questioned

"Yeah.."

"Show me then." I furrowed my eyebrows on what this could be.

I went into the living room and saw a man sitting there. He looked pretty well kept, he wore a polo shirt and blue jeans and looked like an average guy.

"Who are you?" I laughed awkwardly and looked to mum, then to Shawn who gave me a funny look and then back at the man.

"Hello Alissa, I'm your mums boyfriend!" He stood up from the sofa and gave me a huge smile.

"What?" I said

"That's not very polite." Mum nudged me and said in my ear before turning back at him and smiling

"It's all good. I know you've just gotten back from tour and this is a lot for you to handle." He said "my name is Greg." He took his hand out for me to shake. I looked down at it and froze.

"Why don't we get changed and we will come back down to talk." Amber said knowing I was okay.

I held shawns hand and we all made our way up.

I got into my room, amber sat down on my bed and Shawn sat on my vanity chair. "What the fuck is this man doing?" I paced up and down my room.

"It's fine, your mums got a boyfriend." Shawn held my arm

"No Shawn, it's not. How is she just dropping this on me. How did she say it to you?" I looked at amber.

"Exact same way." Amber rolled her eyes

"How does she think this is okay? Dad hasn't even been dead for a year and she's already fucking going around with other me?!" I threw my hands in the air.

"I know! It's fucked up and I told her that as well."

"Hey, just sit down." I did as Shawn said and sat down.

"Oh my fucking god." I looked up at my ceiling.

"There's something even worse as well." Amber tapped my arm twice

"You arent making it any better amber." I could feel Shawn giving her the eyes

"Don't. fucking. Tell. Me. She's. Pregnant. Cuz I'll stop coming here." I sat up and rested myself on my elbows

"Nope but it's somewhat that bad." She bit down on her lip.

Shawn Phone went off. He answered it. I could tell it was mum. "Your mums asking you to come down." He said after putting his phone back in his back pocket.

"Amber, lemme get changed, tell mum I'm coming."

I put my comfy clothes on and Shawn and I made our way downstairs.

I went into the living room and saw mum and Greg on the sofa and then amber sitting uncomfortably on the other. "What is it?" I asked

"I just want you to know, that greg isn't just my boyfriend, he's also my fiancé!!" She showed me her ring that glistened in the sunlight that came through from this garden which was behind me.

"Oh my god. I really didn't think it could get worse." I rolled my eyes.

"Alissa!!"

"No mum!!!! Dad hasn't even been dead for one year and you're already engaged? What the fuck?" I raised my voice.

"Alissa, just calm down." Shawn said in my ear

"I'm not going to calm down though. Dad hasn't even been dead for a year. Not even a year. And you're already engaged?" I said repeatedly

"You don't need to keep on repeating yourself." Greg said

"I need to drill it into mums head though." My voice cracked

"Lets just stay calm.." amber said "mainly Alissa ." She rubbed my arm

"I'm going to take a walk." Greg excused himself and left the house

"You do that" I muttered

We waited for the door to close before anyone said anything "Alissa babe I know this is a lot. But we need to move on. Your dad will never be replaced or forgotten."

"I knownmum. It's just a lot to come home to." I should've known something was up. "Mum. You're engaged. That's a big fucking deal." I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"I know alissa , trust me, it was for me as well. But if it feels right, it feels right. I'm a grown women" she took my hand. "Get to know Greg and trust me, you will like him."

"You need to remember Alissa that you don't like change. But sometimes change is for the better." Shawn said to me

"I know..." I nodded knowing he's right

"I want you to stay a few nights, Shawn your obviously welcome, you can if you want." Mum said

"Thanks.." Shawn gave mum a warming smile and she reciprocated. "I think you should say sorry to Greg as well alissa." He put his hands on my shoulder

"Baby steps.." I chuckled as a tear fell down my face. "You know it was dads birthday the other day." I looked back at mum

"Yes, we went to his grave and put down flowers and left him a note there that you left before you went on a mini tour thing" Mum said

"That song is my sonnnnggg!!" Amber blurted out "its been so nice to watch your interviews together."

"Did you guys watch the Zach sang one?" I asked

"Yeah, shawns family was out our house as well and we binge watched all of the interviews together." Mum smiled at Shawn "Greg thinks you're really funny and really likes you."

Mums comment did make me smile a little bit because he knows how crazy I am and I don't feel like I have to be different around him.