SoulMate (COMPLETE)

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We really don't know what will happen in the future. Sa bilis ng panahon, minsan nakakalimutan ko na kung paano ko nakaya ang lahat. I forgot all those hurtful memories in order for me to survive.

"Mama!" Napalingon ako ng tinawag nya ako. And in an instant, everything just became so bright.

"Hi Baby!" Tumakbo sya patungo sakin. "I missed you!" I showered him with a lot of kisses.

"Mama ng mama kaya dinala ko na dito. Lunch break mo naman di ba?" Annie said.

"At bakit ako hinahanap ng batang makulit ha?" Whenever we're together, I just can't get enough of him. Tinignan ko naman si Annie. "Yeah. Breaktime ko pa."

I was tickling my baby when Annie spoke. "Di mo ba talaga sasama si Yago sa Manila, Pia?"

Natahimik ako. I don't know how to answer her question.

It had been almost 3 years na naninirahan ako dito sa Boracay. After my first check up, I tried to figure everything out. I tried to clear up my mind. Gusto ko bawat anggulo makita ko kung ano ang mga magiging resulta sa mga mapagdedesisyunan ko. I decided for the both of us, but more importantly I decided what will be the best for the baby. And so, I decided to leave.

I know that my family will drag him back if they'll know that Yago is inside me. I know that Kuya will do everything, come hell or high water, just to be sure that he's beside me. And I know, he'll running back to me if he knew about our baby. But that's not what I want for us. Not for him. I finally understand the reason why we needed to be apart. To grow. To be mature enough.

For that three years, I didn't communicate with him. Maybe he tried, but I asked my family to say nothing to him. I also told Agua the same thing. But that time, he really needed to stop feeding Lord any information. Though, I still check his condo and tattoo shop every now and then. His car is in our garage in Manila and asked Kuya to maintain it. I also opened an account under Yago's name for all the earnings of the tattoo shop.

But not everything happened according to plan. Especially my relationship with my Mom. We grew apart. Hindi nya suportado ang paglipat ko dito sa isla. Mas ikinasama pa nya ng loob kapag hindi ako nakakauwi tuwing holiday. Of course I can't leave Yago during those times. I always give alibis whenever they wanted to pay a visit. Naiintindihan ko naman si Mommy, she's really softy when it comes to me. Dad and Kuya don't support this as well but they chose to understand. Same goes with Agua. Nagtatampo din kasi lagi akong may dahilan kapag sinusubukan nyang pumunta sakin. Kesyo may conference din akong aattenan o kaya naman ay masyadong madaming tao at di ko sya maaasikaso. I practically avoided those people he got connections with.

So, I raised Ysmael Agustus all by myself. Nung una mahirap. Mag-isa ako e. Yung feeling na sanay ka na lahat inaabot sa'yo then bigla na lang pag gising mo lahat ikaw na gagawa. But I thought, that was what I needed. Dapat maging dependent ako sa sarili ko. Lalo na't magiging nanay na ako. So I strive harder. I wanted to live by his reasons why we needed the space. And that is to grow and mature. In terms of work, hindi naman ako nahirapan. I got a good position in one of the prestigious hotel here in Boracay because of my background.

"Baka kaya mama ng mama yan, nararamdaman nyang iiwan mo na naman sya." Annie said that made me go back to present.

"Dalawang araw lang naman Annie." I said while playing Yago's hair.

I heard her sigh. "Ano nga ulit ang dahilan mo kung bakit ayaw mo syang ipakilala sa pamilya mo?" Tanong nya na kay Yago nakatingin. "Ayaw mong malaman ng tatay nya na may anak sya, tama?"

Here we go again. Whenever aalis ako, we always talk about this.

"Sabi mo Pia, dalawang taon lang at babalik na sya. It had been three years, girl." Naiiling nyang sabi.