Break Free

Chapter 47 - Sneaky Plans

-Negan POV-

God fucking damn it, i had to know that Jack would act like this if she saw me burn Carson. I should have known better than to do that in front of her, that poor girl has seen enough in her days and now me doing that i have scared her even more. I love her so fucking much and that was really wrong of me to do that.

Jack is strong i know, but she is also smart see i know her a little too well. She tries to make the best out of everything and she has such a big fuckin' heart even though she has been through hell and back. She opens up to me and tells me things that i know have to be hard for her. I never though she would tell me that while being beaten she was pregnant.

That really fucking bothers me, the fact that she had to go through all of that alone, i would have killed to be there with her then, to hold her and help her through the pain. I know that since she hasn't been the same, i don't actually blame her. Jack is amazing and it broke my heart to watch her leave yesterday. I wanted so badly to chase her and hold her in my arms.

I pondered for her all night, the way her long hair cascades across her pillow, the way she smells. Fuck she always smells good to me, and yeah i love making love to her too. It took her a while to give herself to me and when she did, i was taken to the fucking stars. I never met a girl like her before.

I hope she is okay out there, i want so badly to go out and find her but somehow i know deep down she is not leaving me, she will be back here by the morning i can assure it. For now though i need to go see my pal Eugene about the pills he made, then i need to find those sneaky bitches and have them ready to be taken to Hilltop tomorrow.

I think about how fucking funny that is going to be, seeing fucking Tonya and Frankie milking a fucking cow and pulling crops. See they have it made here, or they did i know i was kinda ruthless for dumping them all of a sudden but when Jack came here, i knew right away i only wanted her. The wives were company to me till she came along and Jack is the complete package.

There isn't a damn thing she can't do, i mean fuck me she can cook, pretty well i might add and she can sing, her voice fuck it sends me to another world. Now that she can kick ass and fire a gun what is there not for me to love about her. I want her to marry me and i know she doesn't want that and i get it we don't need the label of marriage to define us.

But damn, i know for fuckin' sure i am spending the rest of my life with her, no matter what fucking happens, Jack is my girl for life now, i just hope it stays that way. She will come back to me and when she does i am going to change, i will change for her and only Jack. That is how much she means to me, i will never let her leave again and that it a promise to her and me.

I grab my second girl that is closest to my heart and i make my way down to see Mr. Eugene now he will probably shit his fucking pants when he sees me, but i am not going to hurt him. I am pretty fucking pissed off about Tonya, first she beats the fuck out of my girl although Jack handed it to her more, she still did it but now she pulls this. Oh fucking no, she is lucky she is a woman, i would be burning her face off but that is too cruel for her at least.

I knock on his door, doing it in a little jingle till he opens it. I stare blankly at him as he looks fuckin' scared. He must have known i would show up here, and interrogate him. He gets to live because he is valuable to me. His bullet making skills could come in handy one day, he will make a difference for me and the saviors.

"May i come in?" I ask him, but i step into his room anyway, making sure he sees Lucille on my shoulder.

"So how are you liking it here?" I ask him as he closes the door. "Are we doing right by Doctor Smarty Pants?"
This man cracks me the fuck up his serious and scared demeanor puts a smile right on my face. He doesn't say a word so i decide to speak my mind a little. "You know that i learned about the little stunt Tonya pulled, and for that well she is going to Hilltop, and you well you get to stay here and continue the awesome job you are doing"