Break Free

Chapter 21 - Closer

Having a rough night of nightmares of her past mostly just about her mom, Jack wakes up and unravels herself from Negan's arms. She knows he came in late and he climbed into bed with her, but she fell asleep again and she enjoys having him there with her.

But this nightmare wakes Jack up and it scares her so bad she can't go back to sleep and she sits up with her legs crossed together and debates what to do right now. Jack doesn't want to wake Negan up she stares down at him as he snores and he snores loud sometimes, but she admires how he looks with his face scrunched into the pillow.

Negan looks so fuckin' cute right now, he has his face scrunched up against the pillow. I want to go back to sleep, but i can't and it's because i close my eyes i can see my mama again and she looks like a dead person. I know when i put her down she wanted me to do it, but it haunts me all the time. I have really started to have a lot more dreams about her lately, but i get through them the best way i can.

Jack crawls over to Negan and kisses his cheek before getting out of bed for a glass of water. She feels like the hangover has completely gone away she just has severe insomnia right now and it pisses her off, she wants to sleep but she can't bring herself to do it.

Wanting to get out of the room, Jack slips out the door quietly not caring about it being the middle of the night she walks up the stairs all the way to the top to the roof. The beautiful night sky and crisp air hit Jack's face as she opens the double doors and walks out while closing the doors behind her.

Jack walks over to her spot where she likes to sit and leans against the wall, resting her arms down on the wall to overlook the view. It's silent and not a single thing can be heard, so she takes in the silence and enjoys the way the cool air hits her bare legs. Negan would be mad if he knew she came out of their room with just a t shirt and panties on, but she didn't really care.

This is so nice to be out here right now, i take it all in and enjoy it while i can. I know my boyfriend would be pissed right now because i'm almost naked outside of our room, but Negan will live. I'm a grown woman i can somewhat do what i want. I look up to the sky and i can see very few stars, but the sky is clear and pretty.

I used to love looking at the stars when i was little, i always found myself obsessed with space and shit. I mean i was into music mostly throughout my childhood but my strongest subject was science. I found myself obsessed with all of it, astronomy, weather always fascinated me as well.

I miss that stuff, i miss everything. That day changed lives forever and now we all have pretty much nothing left. But most of all there is nothing really left of me anymore, but Negan is very slowly bringing me back, the old me, the old Jack.

Negan is the missing piece of the puzzle, he is what i have needed the past two years, i thought i was going to be alone forever and i thought when the world ended i would never find my soulmate. Well now i have found him and i can see myself with him for the rest of my life, we get each other and our love is real.

Back in the bedroom Negan stirs awake after having a weird dream, but he remembers it to be the day Lucille died, he rarely ever has a bad dream but tonight he did. He reaches over realizing that Jack slipped out of his arms he moves his arms around to try and find her but he has no luck. He lifts the cover and her side of the bed is empty.

"Jack, where are ya baby?" Negan gets out of bed and turns on his lamp, thinking maybe she got out of bed and fell asleep somewhere else. So he checks the bathroom, no sigh of her anywhere in the room.

"Where the hell can she be" then he pulls his sweatpants on and he leaves the room. Negan knows exactly where she went and it kind of made him mad that she left the room in the middle of the night, but he was asleep, he couldn't stop her.