Butterfly (COMPLETED)

MAHEUN-AHOP

CARISZE's POV

Nakangiti ako habang pinagmamasdan ang tatlong mahalaga sa buhay ko na nagke kwentuhan at nagtatawanan.

Napatigil lang ang pagtulala ko nang marinig ko ang pangalan kong binanggit ni Claey.

"Carisze-noona is broken eomma. That stupid guy hurt my noona"
"How? Ivyr is a good man. He made a promise to me. He will not hurt your noona"
"But he did eomma. Look at noona, she's sad and I don't know how to make her happy"
"I'm happy dongsaeng. Just to see you three happy, I'm happy too. You're my happiness"
"I know you're not that too happy noona. Yes, we are your happiness but we both know that you're incomplete-"
"No, I'm complete. We're complete and that's important. Let's not talk about my EX. Don't spoil the night and let just be happy"

Ngumiti muna ako sa kanila bago ako tumayo at tumungo sa garden.

Naihilamos ko ang kamay ko sa mukha ko. Nagulat ako dahil may biglang tumapik sa balikat ko.

Si eomma lang pala.

Umupo siya sa upuan katabi ko.

"How are you? Don't lie to me"

I let out a heavy sighed.

"Still in pain. Trying to forget and move on"
"Trying to forget what?"
"Trying to forget Ivyr and all the memories we had"
"That's not right. I mean forgetting your memories with Ivyr. And it's hard, I know. I've been on your shoes years ago"
"Eomma, why does it hard to forget the people you loved and at the same time who also gives you pain?"
"It is not hard to forget the people you love but the feelings you have for him. You've watch a lot of movies right? Have you watch The Notebook? How about 50 dates?"
"Yes eomma"
"Just like in the movie, even if you got an amnesia you will still know him. Not here *she point her mind* but here *she point her heart*. This part of our body knows where it is belong. Maybe they forget the memories they had, their love's name but the love for their man is not. Just like you with Ivyr, you can forget your memories with him and his name but-"
"Not the feelings I have for him"

Pagpapatuloy ko sa sinabi ni eomma. Naitakip ko ang kamay ko sa mukha ko habang nakayuko.

"What should I do eomma? I really want to move on-"
"Then move forward. Continue loving him, don't stop your feelings for him. Let your heart gets tired from beating for him. Let yourself gets tired from the pain. Let your mind gets tired from reminiscing the past. And let yourself gets tired from Ivyr. Don't push yourself too much, there's always a perfect time for everything. In God's time, Carisze"

Natauhan naman ako sa sinabi ni eomma. Tama siya, dapat hayaan ko na lang ang sarili kong mapagod para sa nararamdaman ko kay Ivyr. Dahil sabi nga nila kapag lalo mong pinipilit, lalong umaayaw. Kaya from now on, I'll let myself on ease. Hindi ko ipe pressure ang sarili kong kalimutan siya dahil tama si eomma. May perfect time para sa lahat.

Tumayo ako at lumapit sa inuupuan ni eomma. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit.

"Thank you eomma. Your advice is still the best"
"You're always welcome my ddal (daughter). I'm always here for you, copy that. Arasso?"
"Eung eomma. Gomawo eomma"
"It's nothing. I need to get inside, I'm preparing our dinner"
"Ok eomma"

Bumitaw na ko sa yakap namin. Bumalik ako sa inuupuan ko at naglakad na paalis si eomma.

"Carisze..."

Napalingon ako kay eomma.

"Yes eomma?"
"Thank you for bringing back your little brother"
"No problem eomma. It's my responsibility to make our family complete"

Ngumiti na lang si eomma at nagtuloy na sa paglalakad.

Umayos naman ako ng upo at tumingala sa langit.