After Action [COMPLETED]

[SE] "DRIFTING APART"

Written 22 October 2019

Is it me, or am I drifting apart from the people I once considered my "friends"? I think downgrading the term I use for the people who "know" me―from "friends" to "acquaintances"―should be a red flag at this point. Then again, no one truly "understands" me―especially my sole aspiration in life that's currently in the state of a seemingly-inescapable limbo. And I think I have failed to heed the warning sign (attached image on this particular post was a screenshot from 'Tamayura: Graduation Photo', with a translated line that says, "Don't expect to reach your goals alone, no matter how much you struggle".) a long time ago―I'm just denying that singular fact all along.

It's just hard to trust someone with (almost) all of your secrets, especially when you were bullied and ostracized in the past―I'll admit that. But I am trying my best to put every painful experience behind me, even though I knew that the void inside my heart will never be filled, no matter what.

If there's one certainty for this year, it's this: I am truly treading down the path of living the Ogata Hyakunosuke life.