After Action [COMPLETED]

[SE] "I STAND ALONE"

Written 10 October 2019

These past few days, I'm actually considering the prospect of cutting myself away from the outside world once again.

I know, I know―someone will parrot, "here you go again with your negativity; can't you―for once―think of something positive?" Well, if one has experienced being bullied and ostracized since childhood, those memories are the only things they will think once they mature enough. Especially in today's age, where everything is a big game of comparison and contrast; of masks and façades; of living a life, as opposed to living the life―following their lifelong dreams and desires.

Writing was something I have only discovered later, now that I am a broken-down "man" who "strongly believes in slice-of-life animé"; and I have also discovered that I was a little too late to dream of becoming a locally-published author, who can write stories that deviate from the norm―stories that can entertain other people, and inform them at the same time. And since no one on my current list of "acquaintances" has truly understood what I wanted to be―and I've got to admit, I did fuck up by shielding my dreams, aspirations, and my "true self" away from them―and instead, "suggested" that I should live a life like theirs, maybe I should just do away with them, both here and in real life. I may end up becoming an ungrateful asshole in the process, but I have stood alone all these years . . .

And standing up alone once more might not hurt.