𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒, 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒

~Unwanted Pt.3~

C O O P E R

"Cooper Finn Hartley..." I knew what was coming, I would get told off because I ran away, because I scared the life out of my mom. I didn't look at her as I stared into the fire, watching as the flames ate away at the wood, fuelling it's anger as it growled in the confined chamber.

"Why? Why would you do this? Why would you run away and scare the living hell out of me? Did you even think about what would of happened if something happened to you? Or did that not go through your head? You only seem to think about yourself don't you? This isn't okay Cooper! What would have happened if you got hit by a car? If you were kidnapped?! Or killed?! You can't just run away like that Cooper! You won't always be as lucky as you were tonight!"

Silent tears fell down my face as I took in moms words, only making me feel worse about the whole situation. Not a single sob left my mouth, yet a million tears fell down my face like Niagara Falls.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've put you through, all of my shit you've had to put up with. I'm sorry I'm not normal, that I'm not social or sporty. I'm sorry I'm not happy or joyous, I'm sorry I'm just sad and sarcastic. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect son you wanted, the happy, caring, joyous son you once knew. I'm sorry I've changed, and not for the better. I'm sorry I'm such a let down to you, that I'm such a stuck up asshole who only cares about himself. I'm sorry for everything..."

I spoke truthfully, I was sorry that my mom had a let down of a son like me, I am sorry she has to put up with my shit. Everything I've done, I'm sorry for, because anything I've done has been a mistake to everyone. I lifted the blanket up, wiping away the tears.

Felicity knelt down in front of me, she looked into my eyes, seeing the truth. Diesel was hammering away at my brain, feeding on my misery as though it were his last meal. He took comfort in my pain, bathing in my sorrows as I sat here crying.

She crawled towards me, pushing my arms open as she sat on my lap, wrapping her arms around my torso. She laid her head on my chest, listening to my heartbeat as tears fell down my face, landing softly on her head. Her hands rubbed soothing circles on my back, her body providing me with warmth, not just body heat... but making me feel slightly happy... the feeling I always have around her.

"Do you want something to eat?" Felicity asked, I shook my head, burying my face into her hair. "I just want you." I muttered into her hair, I wrapped my arms tighter around her. "Cooper, you need to eat something, please, for me?" I found myself once again doing as Felicity bid. I slowly nodded my head, she moved away from me, the warmness I once felt leaving with her.

She went into the kitchen to get something to eat, I just sat there, staring into the fire. James came over, putting more wood on the fire. "Do you want another blanket?" I shook my head. James gave me a small smile before going and sitting down. "I think we all need to take a break tomorrow. Felicity, Damian, you two can stay the night. I'll tell the school and your parents you won't be attending." Mom said.

Felicity came back, a box of strawberries and a jar of melted chocolate. She sat back down in my lap, my arms wrapped around her body as I buried my face in her neck. "No no no, you need to eat Cooper. Look, I even got you your favourite food!" Felicity said, I lifted my head up and looked her in the eyes as I opened my mouth. She gave me a confused look. "My hands are slightly occupied." I said, motioning to my arms around her waist. She rolled her eyes but I saw her lips curve into a smile.

She pulled the stem off of the strawberry before dipping it in the melted chocolate. I opened my mouth as she placed the strawberry in my mouth, I could see the slight blush on her cheeks, making the smallest of smiles cross over my face.

I ate a few more strawberries before burying my head in Felicity's neck, refusing to eat or look at anyone. "You know... you two are basically couple goals." Blake said, I could practically feel Felicity blush. "We aren't even together." I said, I lifted my head back up, looking Felicity in the eyes. "Strawberry?" She rolled her eyes with a smile before giving me another chocolate covered strawberry.

She placed another two in my mouth, a small smile spread over my face as I looked at her. "You know... your eyes are really blue in the fire light." I said out of nowhere, I heard everyone around me chuckle as I just stared at Felicity, mesmerised by her beautiful eyes. "And yours look almost honey like, the rich type of honey." Felicity said, causing a smile to grow over my face.

I opened my mouth again, Felicity chuckled before giving me another chocolate covered strawberry. Felicity got herself one, a bit of the chocolate landed on the side of her lips. I smirked as I looked at her. "You got a bit of chocolate there." I said, pointing to my own lips to show her. Before she could wipe it off, I lent forward, placing my lips on the side of hers.

I smirked as Felicity blushed, wiping the side of her mouth where I licked the chocolate off. Yes... I licked it off... hush don't judge...

Her eyes darted around the room, before she finally looked back at me. She snuggled closer to me, hiding her face in the blanket. "Everyone is looking." She muttered, loud enough for me to hear. "Let them look." I said as I placed a small kiss on her head.

"We aren't even together, my ass!" Blake said, causing us all to laugh. I pulled Felicity closer to me, hugging her tightly. "We are just really good friends." I said, dragging my fingers through Felicity's soft hair.

I felt tired so, me being me, laid down on the pillows around me. I moved so that I was lying on Felicity in a way that I had nearly no weight on her. My head rested over her heart, the rhythmic beat soothing me.

I pulled the blanket over us, taking in the warmth of the blanket and the fire. I wrapped my arms around Felicity's waist as I felt her start to play with my hair. "You guys are totally together." Carlos said, I could hear the smirk in his voice. "Shut. Up." I growled, snuggling closer into Felicity, letting the sound of her heart beat calm me down.

This is all I need, Felicity in my arms, a fire warming us and chocolate strawberries in my tummy. This was all I wanted, and right now, I'm happy I had it.

"Ti amo..." [I love you...] I whispered before my mind slipped away, letting me fall into a peaceful slumber.