𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒, 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒

~"I'm fine! Stop asking."~

It was about two hours later, Slaughter was here now, sitting on my shoulder as I played a game on my computer. Never Winter to be exact, it's this online D&D style game. I have a level 73 Trickster Rogue, I named him Void after Emptiness's crow. The character was a drow, pronounced kind of like "dr-ow". A drow was a dark elf, they are supposedly an evil version of an elf. And not the little Christmas elves, like Legolas type of an elf. God I love the Hobbit...

But I made a new character, A Tyfling Scourge Warlok called Slaughter. Yes, I named a gaming character after a bird, don't judge me.

I had just hit level Twelve when I heard the front door open. I got myself to a safe spot before going downstairs, Slaughter still on my shoulder. Blake, Carlos and James were in the kitchen, eating pizza.

I decided, since I was down here, I'd stock up on food. As I was heading to the kitchen, Blake looked up at me. His smile faded into a look of confusion and concern. "Are you okay Cooper?" He asked, causing James and Carlos to look at me. "Shit you good?"

"Have you been crying?"

"Are you alright?"

"Do you need someone to talk to?"

"What's the matter?" The asked one after one, I could feel myself getting agitated. "I'm fine! Stop asking." I said, grabbing the things I need before making my way back upstairs.

I sat back down at my computer, signing back into my game since it signed me out. I started to eat as I continued to play. I was battling a quest boss when there was a knock on my door, causing me to lose focus. "Shit. Come in!" I shouted, my door opened and I heard footsteps walk towards me.

I started spamming buttons, I was so close to killing this dude! Just a few more hits...-

My screen turned black, the music and sound of the game cutting off completely. My eyes went wide as I tried to figure out what happened to my computer.

I turned to see Xavier holding the power plug, I felt my rage build as I glared at him. "Why the fuck did you just do that?!?!" I shouted at him, throwing my head seat down. "Your mom told me to come get you, dinners ready." He said.

"I was in the middle of a quest and you've just fucked everything up! I have to start all over again you fucking asshole!!" I shouted as I pushed past him, making my way downstairs. I heard Slaughter cry out, catching up to me before sitting on my shoulder.

I stomped into the kitchen, taking a seat as I tried not to seem pissed. But I was failing miserably. "You okay buddy? You look mad..."

"Xavier over there decided to turn my computers power off right as I was about to finish something, now I'm going to have to start all. Over. Again." I seethed out, glaring directly at Xavier as I spoke. "Xavier, you didn't need to do that."

"Well how else would I get his attention?"

"YOU COULD HAVE FUCKING SPOKEN TO ME INSTEAD OF BEING A CAZZO STONZO DI UNA PUNTURA AND SHUTTING OFF MY SYSTEM!!" [Fucking asshole of a prick] I shouted at him, Xavier stepped back a bit, obviously not expecting me to shout that much.

"Cooper Finn Hartley, enough of your shouting and your language! If you are going to act like that you won't play at all!!" Mom shouted at me, I went quiet as I felt everyone staring at me. I felt Slaughter fly away, instead Insecurity stood beside me, Embarrassment clinging onto my back.

I held my arms close to my body, my head hanging as I avoided everyone's gazes. "I'm sorry." I whispered out, closing my eyes as I felt Embarrassment press himself closer to me, his slimy hands gripping my shirt.

"Thank you Cooper, now, let's have some dinner shall we?" Mom said, handing us our plates. I only put a small amount of food of my plate, I didn't feel hungry. I picked at my food, mom must have noticed because she let out a sigh as she picked the bridge of her nose.

"Look, Cooper. If you aren't going to eat, bugger off to your room because I don't think anyone wants to see you sulking." This caused everyone to look between mom and I. I just stared at her, I finally let out a dry laugh as I threw my fork back onto the table, creating a loud noise in the process.

I pushed my chair back harshly as I stood up and left the kitchen, making my way upstairs to my room. I closed the door, slumping against it as I pulled my legs to my chest. I'm so sick of this, of all of this. First, people can't decide whether they care about me or not, one minute they are so worried about me, the next they are sick of me and just want me to leave. Second, I'm so sick of being the one that ends up in trouble, Xavier starts everything and I always get the blame for it.

I felt a few tears fall down my cheeks, I quickly wiped them away as I stood up and walked over to my wall. There hung the photo frame, pictures of myself, Felicity and Damian all over it. My eyes focused on Felicity, I could feel anger and sadness wash over me as I looked at her.

This is my fault, all of it. It's my fault I trusted her, let down my walls and let her in. It's my fault for being so foolish, for being so blind and stupid. It's my fault for telling her my weaknesses, giving her something to use against me. It's my fault for falling into her trap, for letting her lead me into it. It's my fault for thinking she was different, thinking she was nice.

It's my fault for loving her... for thinking she could love me back...

I looked down at the locked bracelet on my wrist, I scoffed. God, how pathetic. I was so "in love" with her that I bought a fucking bracelet, one that I can't even get off without that dammed key.

I looked at the other three bracelets on my drawers, the lion, the dragon and the figure of eight. Her voice rang through my head, reminding me about them.

"The lion represents your bravery, for putting on a brave face for everyone around you. The dragon head represents your strength, for always staying persistent in the face of your problems. And the infinity symbol represents your courage, never ending because I know that you always find a reason to do things... these are just a reminder."

How many times did she lie to my face?