𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒, 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒

~In deep trouble~

I was dancing around my room, I felt like I was on cloud9! Beer bottles were scattered around the room, most empty, any that weren't were being emptied. I had a cigarette between my lips, I hadn't opened a window so the smoke was building but hey! Who cares?!

Music was blasting loudly, probably shaking the walls of the house but hey! Not like anyone is here...

Black ocean, cold and dark
I am the hungry shark, fast and merciless
But the only girl that could talk to him just couldn't swim
Tell me what's worse than this
And it echoes in the halls
They danced along the walls
The memories of your ghost
You are the one that I used to love
And I'm still in love, but I've never loved you the most

I've seen better days
So unafraid in my youth
I can't breathe, much less believe

You gave everything you had
Every little thing you had
I'm gonna run repairs
I've seen your fucking worst
And at your worst, you're still the best
But at my best, I am the worst
It's a curse
Your eyes are lined in pain
Black tears don't hide in rain
And I tied you to the tracks
When I turned around, I heard the sound
I hit the ground, I know there's no turning back

I've seen better days
So unafraid in my youth
I can't breathe, much less believe the truth
Better days, so unafraid in my youth
I can't breathe, much less believe the truth

Black ocean, cold and dark
I am the hungry shark, fast and merciless
But the only girl that could talk to him, she couldn't swim
Tell me what's worse than this
What's worse is all the coke
The ice that numbs my throat if only for the night
My muscles will contract, your bones will crack
It's just a fact 'cause I am here to win this fight

I can't fucking breathe, much less believe the truth
I pick up a gun, aim for the sun, and shoot
Better days, so unafraid in my youth
I can't breathe or believe the truth

Your eyes are lined in pain
Black tears don't hide in rain
And I tied you to the tracks
When I turned around, I heard that sound

I laid down on the ground, feeling slightly dizzy as I could feel tears falling down my cheeks. "AHHH!!!! MY EYES ARE LEAKING!!!!" I shouted, panicking as I picked up one of my shirts, pressing it against my eyes to stop the 'leak'.

My bedroom door burst open, I didn't know who it was but I cried out. "HELP ME!!! MY EYES ARE LEAKING!!!" I cried out, the shirt on my face was ripped away as I looked up to meet moms glaring eyes. "Mom!! You're back!! I missed youuuu!!" I whined, lifting my arms up for a hug. Mom pushed my hands down, forcing me to sit up.

"I want a hug." I pouted like a child, I still had leaking eyes but all I wanted was a hug from mom. "No! No hug!! Now turn this crap off so I can hear you!!" She shouted, I crossed my arms and glared at mom as I turned off my music. "It isn't crap." I mumbled, Mom groaned as she turned to Harrison. "Could you please get me a glass of water for him?"

Harrison nodded before leaving, I looked back around my room, grabbing one of the not empty bottles and taking a large sip. Mom snatched the bottle from my hands, causing me to shout. "Give it back!!"

"Don't you shout at me!" Mom shouted back, I went quiet, shrinking back as I avoided mom's gaze.

I grabbed a cigarette, not thinking as I lit it and took a puff. "Cooper!!" Mom shouted as she took the cigarette, I snapped my gaze up to her. "No! Please! Give it back, please!" I said, mom shook her head, I felt tears welling in my eyes. "I need it..." I muttered.

"Stand up, we are going downstairs, I can't stand the stench of this room." Mom said, grabbing me by the upper arm and dragging me out of my room.

We went downstairs, mom pointed to the couch, I walked over and sat down, almost like an obedient dog as I kept my head down. Mom and Harrison came back a minute later, holding a glass and two pills in their hands. Harrison handed me the glass while mom tried to give me the pills.

I kept both of my hands on the glass, refusing to take the pills. "Cooper, just take them." I shook my head, keeping my head away from mom and Harrison. "Cooper! Take the damn pills!!" Mom shouted, causing my to flinch as I took the pills. I took a mouthful of water with them, making them slide down easily.

I placed the glass down, folding my legs as I sat quietly on the couch. "What pills were those?" I asked shyly, Mom only just heard me. "Pain killers Cooper, because you were so stupid and careless to drink 15 bottles of alcohol!!!" She shouted, causing me to flinch again as I let my head drop, focusing on my hands in my lap.

"Why?!?! Why in the world did you think it was okay to take Harrison's alcohol and get yourself drunk?!?!" Mom shouted, I felt tears well in my eyes, my lip beginning to tremble. Sobs begged to escape my lips as I lifted my hand up, wiping away the tears. But I couldn't help it, small sobs fell from my mouth as I held my own hands tightly, something I've found I do when I feel upset and alone, it's like I'm giving myself comfort.

"NO!! Do not even dare crying in front of me, you will not get any pity from me whatsoever!!"

"I-I d-don't w-w-want pi-pity..." I stuttered in a small, broken voice, tears rolling down my cheeks like waterfalls. "I-I just w-wante-ed to f-forget." I said, a small hiccup leaving my mouth.

"Forget what Cooper?!?! What was so bad that you wanted to get drunk off your ass to forget?!?!" Mom shouted, another sob came, I shut my mouth, trying to cut it off. Another few hiccups came, I wiped my eyes roughly, wishing I would just stop crying. "D-D-Damian and I-I had a-a f-f-fight." I mumbled out, my voice breaking as I spoke.

I looked down at my hands, sniffling slightly as I tried to hold back the sobs that threatened to come. "What do you mean?" Mom asked, not as loud this time. "W-we fought, what e-el-se could I-I-I m-mean?" I replied back, I wiped my eyes again, another hiccup filling the silence. "Look, you're in big trouble mister, that's for sure. But right now, Harrison and I have a dinner to go to, by the time I get back, I expect your room to be clean! Understood?"

"Y-Yes mom." I muttered out, Mom let out a sigh before grabbing her things and leaving with Harrison. "Oh, and don't even think about having another cigarette, I threw the packet out." Mom said, she finally left, slamming the door shut. I lifted my knees up, burying my face in them as I started to sob, tears flowing from my eyes like rivers, I didn't even care if anyone heard me.

I don't know how long I had sat their crying for until I heard a voice.

"Cooper?"