𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒, 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒

~Goodbye for now~

C O O P E R

I said goodbye to Damian, mom had told me that Carlos and James were leaving today, so I was going to say goodbye. As I walked into the driveway, I saw Blake hugging Carlos and Xavier hugging James.

I think it's the first time I've seen Xavier hug someone... James was the first to notice me, him and Xavier broke apart, James held his arms out. With a small smile, I walked over, wrapping my arms around him. "I haven't known you for that long but it's definitely gonna be different without you both." I muttered, I felt James pat my back.

"Hey, don't worry. Like I told Blake and Xavier, we will come to visit, we'll be back for Xavier's birthday." James said, I nodded my head. "Oh! I also found the present I was supposed to give you!" James said, I stepped back, looking at him with an eyebrow raised. "Present?" James nodded his head, he handed me a small box.

I carefully opened it, there was a beaded bracelet inside. Twelve blue beads, ten black beads. A Capricorn symbol in the middle of six blue beads. I looked up at James with a smile. "T-thanks... But I don't understand... why am I getting a present and not your actual brothers?"

"That was a birthday present I meant to give you... I sorta lost it before I could give it to you. And besides, you are my real brother Cooper. I don't care if your from a different mom and dad, you're still my brother." James said, I put the bracelet on with my silver one and the lock bracelet, I still wish I could get it off. "Thank you James, it's really cool, I appreciate it." I said as I gave him another hug.

I turned to Carlos, he was already waiting with a smile. I walked over, he pulled me into a hug. I looked over his shoulder, Mom and Harrison were watching in awe, I'm pretty sure I saw tears in her eyes.

After a second, we pulled back. "You better do good in Harvard, we might need a lawyer on our side in the future." I joked, Carlos let out a small laugh. "I plan on doing well Buddy, I'll be a kickass lawyer!"

Carlos and James finished putting their stuff in the car, once it was in, they gave mom a hug before getting in the car. Harrison got in the front, we all waved goodbye as the car drove off. Once it was gone, I made my way upstairs. I shut, and locked my door. I sat down against the door, tears brimming in my eyes. I don't exactly know why I'm crying... I just know that someone is enjoying it.

All through out the day, my arm had ached. But it wasn't normal like the other times, where it just hurt because I had hurt myself... this was different, it almost felt as though I hundred fires were burning in my arms, a thousand needles poking through my skin... a million teeth biting at my skin. It wasn't like any other time...

"Don't cry Cooper, please don't cry..." Suicide said as he sat down beside me, I peered up at him. I shook my head. "I'm not crying, my eyes are just leaking." I mumbled. Bullet crawled onto my foot, climbing up my leg towards my face. I put my legs down, holding my arms out for her. She jumped into my arms, sitting down comfortably as I started to pet her.

"Listen... I promise you I'll try and stop Sam as much as I can... but even I can't do much against him... he controls me." Suicide said, I could hear the sincerity in his voice. I shook my head. "Thank you S, I appreciate it but I understand, he controls you, I get that. But I've been through worse, I'll be okay." I said, Bullet let out a small, calming noise. I gently stroked her, lulling her into a peaceful sleep.

"You don't understand Cooper, Sam isn't like the others, he isn't just here to make your live misery, he wants-"

"I think that's enough Suicide... I think Cooper needs some alone time." Sam said as he appeared in front of us, I heard Suicide take in a sharp breath. It hurt him if they were both here, because Sam wasn't fully Sam without Suicide, he was trying to force Suicide back into him.

I could tell Suicide didn't want to go, he wanted to stay and comfort me, it really did make me feel wanted... "It's okay, you can go." I whispered to Suicide, he looked to me unsure. I sent him a smile, he let out a sigh before carefully taking Bullet from my arms. She let out a sad cry, obviously wanting to be with me. "It's okay, I'll see you guys later okay?" Suicide stood up, taking a few steps towards Sam.

Sam places his hand on Suicide's shoulder, I saw Suicide tense slightly. He looked back to me, meeting my eyes as I looked up at him. I sent him a small smile, reminding him I'd be okay.

He turned back to Sam, closing his eyes as he started to fade, joining Sam like he should. Bullet let out a cry, then finally they were gone. Sam turned back to me, a sinister smile crawling over his face.

I felt my lip tremble as tears welled in my eyes, I pressed myself further against the door, pulling my knees to my chest to appear smaller. I felt like a child being scolded by his parents, regretting what they had done because it wasn't nice seeing mom and dad angry.

I felt like a trapped animal, like a small bunny cowering away from a big wolf, I felt vulnerable and scared. I was the prey, Sam was the predator. He would stalk me, watch me, tease me. He'd take his time, enjoying the fear that radiated off of me. He would take his sweet time, making sure I was scared, anticipating any and every move he made.

He would torture me like that, make me fear every second I sat there, fear every breath I took, fear every blink I made. And just when I think he won't do anything, he strikes. My fear builds all over again, not knowing what he'll make me do this time... how bad it would be...

Sam was worse than the others, he wasn't just a voice in my head, or a monster who lurked in the shadows, waiting for its prey to fall asleep, completely unsuspecting of its death soon to come.

No, Sam was much worse than that. He wasn't just another voice in my head, he wasn't like the other monsters in the shadows. Sam was a demon, a figure of my deepest, darkest imagination that could scare me, haunt me, hurt me.

Sam was a demon, a demon of no remorse. He had no care for me, only wishing to see my pain, bathing in my sorrows. He was a devil, a monster and a psychopath. He haunts my dreams and stars in my nightmares, he causes me pain and strikes up fear.

He scares me...

Someone help me... please...