𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒, 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑒

~"She lied to me."~

I walked into the art room, Miss was already looking at some work. Her eyes snapped up to meet mine, a smile growing over her face. "Cooper! Have you finished already?"

"Am I the first?" Miss nodded her head, but had an enthusiastic smile nonetheless. "I was looking at one of my other students work, from the year above. But that doesn't matter! I want to see what you've done!" Miss said, jumping up and down slightly, I let out a small laugh as I handed her my drawing.

She stared at it, her mouth agape slightly. "This... this is amazing Cooper... it has all the right shading and lighting, the right colours too... I can guarantee you'll pass with this!" Miss said, I gave her a warm smile before going to leave.

The door opened, the one person I didn't want to see right now walked in. Felicity. We looked directly into each other's eyes, I could feel the tears beginning to well in mine. No, I won't cry, I won't cry. I walked forward, pushing past her and leaving. I could feel the tears glazing over my eyes, so I didn't turn back.

But if I had of turned back, I might have seen her eyes... seen how sorry she was... If I had of looked back, I might have seen the truth.

~~

I picked up the bag of clothes, slinging it over my shoulder. I made my way downstairs and into the living room, Blake and James were sitting watching TV, I had no clue where Carlos was, didn't give a shit where Xavier was.

"Is there a chance one of you could drive me somewhere please?" I asked, catching James and Blake's attention. They looked between each other before looking back at me. "I could drive you?" Blake sort of asked, I nodded my head. Blake stood up, put his shoes on and grabbed his car keys.

We went outside and got in his car, I sat the bag on my lap as Blake started the car. It was a silent drive, minus me giving Blake directions. After twenty minutes, we arrived. "Isn't this Felicity's house? Are you two having a little fun?" Blake asked with a mix of mischief and amusement.

I kept my face blank as I looked at him. "I just have to drop something off." I looked back at the house, I saw María wandering around the kitchen. "Shit." I pulled out my keys, going through them until I found a specific one. I pulled it off, throwing it into the bag before getting out.

I made my way to the front door, I knocked gently. I waited for a few seconds before María opened the door, a smile blossomed on her face as she saw me. "Ah! Cooper! So nice to see you again!" She said, pulling me into a hug. My eyes widened a bit before I hugged her back, she probably doesn't even know about Felicity and I.

"Hey Miss Romano, I just came to return a few things of Felicity's" I said once she let me go, lifting the bag up. "What have I told you dear, call me María."

"Sorry María." I said with a small chuckle, María took the bag from my hands. "Would you like to come in dear?"

"As much as I would love to María, I have somewhere I need to be." I said, María nodded her head in understanding. "That's fine dear, just be sure to pop around soon, I'd love to catch up. It was nice seeing you though Cooper."

"It was nice seeing you too María, have a good night." I said as I turned around, sending María a wave as I walked back to Blake's car. I got in the passenger seat, running my hand through my hair as I stared at Felicity's bedroom window. "You okay?" Blake asked, I hadn't even noticed that a tear slipped from my eye. I wiped it away, sending him a small smile as I nodded my head. "Yeah, I'm fine, could you uh... drop me off at the cemetery please?"

Blake nodded his head, starting to drive away. I looked back at Felicity's house through the side mirror, silently wishing she had of been there.

Once we got to the cemetery, I started to get out. "When do you want me to pick you up?" Blake asked, I turned back to him. "Don't worry about picking me up, I can just walk home. If mom is already there, could you just tell her I'm visiting Dad and Jax?" I asked.

"Are you sure? I could pick you up if you want..."

"It's fine Blake, really. I'm gonna be here for a few hours, just head home, I'll be fine." I said, sending him a small smile. Blake finally agreed, I got out of the car, waving Blake goodbye as he drove off. I made my way into the cemetery, finding my way to their gravestones.

I sat down, crossing my legs as I looked at the headstones. "Hey guys, I know it's been a while since I've visited... but I have a lot to catch you up on... where do I start? Well, on New Year's Eve, Damian convinced me to finally suck it up and kiss Felicity... you'd probably be proud that I actually grew a pair and had some courage... but it wasn't worth it. She ran away, she stopped answering my calls, my texts... then, when I went back to school, she was with Zeke..."

"She lied to me, she pulled me into a trap and left me there. I trusted her, I trusted her with everything. I told her about you guys... about what actually happened that day. I told her everything because I thought I could trust her... I was so nieve and foolish that I became so desperate to have someone there for me that I didn't think about what I was saying... I let her in, I willingly told her everything and now... I see the truth."

"She lied to me, the entire time. She faked being suicidal, she faked being depressed too. She faked her kindness, her loyalty. She faked how she cared for me. She faked everything. And yet I was so stupid that I couldn't see through that... and I ended up in a trap... and now I feel alone... Over the time she was with me, I had grown attached to her. She could make everything so much better, she did make everything so much better... but I guess that was fake too, right?"

"The monsters are back, it's even worse than before. They aren't just in my head, they actually walk around with me... of course, I'm the only person who see's them. I just... I can't get over the fact of how stupid I was! I bought a fucking lock bracelet that I can't take off now! God, I must seem pretty pathetic aye... you'd probably be laughing at my stupidity right now Jax... if that were the case I probably would too... I just wish things were different, that Felicity wasn't like Zeke. That she actually did care for me, that all those things she had said and done, were real."

I felt a tear slide down my cheek, I let it fall, landing on the ground beneath me. I looked at the two bracelets on my wrist, the one I got for Jax and I, and the one that constantly reminds me of my mistake.

At least now I might think twice...