Falling For Boys In Blue

Chapter 20

*a week later*
Christians pov

The entire day today was weird. There was a weird mood in the clubhouse but I didn't know why. Maybe it was just me I don't know. But it was weird. Kaitlyn was having a rough day herself. And honestly I think that's why I wasn't my best today, at all. I went zero for four and missed the ball a few times. She was on my mind a lot cause I was worried about her.

The game had ended a bit ago and most guys were on the bus by now to head back to the hotel. Kaitlyn and I were supposed to leave ten minutes ago for the bus, but we hadn't. I didn't know where she was, so I went to find her.

My shoulders slumped when I saw her office light still on. Of course she was working. I knocked on her door and her head popped up and then back down.

"The buses leave in ten minutes babe."

"Fuck. Ugh I'm sorry."

"No don't worry about it."

She quickly packed her bag and slung it over her shoulder and walked out. I followed her out to the bus and we went to our back spot. We sat down and she leaned her head back and closed her eyes and let out a deep breath. I reached over and took her hand and rubbed my thumb along her knuckles. As much as I wanted to be comforted right now, I had to be there for her instead.

"I'm gonna change first then I'll be over." She said walking to her room.

"Okay." I watched her walk into her room and slumped against my door. I just wanted her back. Her happy, fun, spontaneous self back. Not this always working her.

I walked into my room and showered. Her entire mood had been off today. I knew that was the reason I wasn't my best today. When I walked out of the bathroom she was laying on the other bed, working.

I dropped down on the floor and sat next to her. I traced my fingers up and down her arm as she typed.

"You're stressed out aren't you?" I asked, wanting to talk about it.

"I don't need to stress you out over my stress it's fine. You have your own stuff." I rested my chin on the bed next to her.

"You can still tell me. I'm still gonna listen."

"Christian it's fine just leave it."

I may have been on the floor, but I still saw the tears welling in her eyes. I got up and sat next to her and rubbed her back.

"C'mon, I'm listening." She let out a sigh.

"I just feel like I'm doing the work of twelve people. It wasn't like that for the Dodgers, maybe cause I was just an intern I don't know. But even then I did a lot and it wasn't this much or this stressful. It's just stressful knowing I'm working all the time for you guys and I can't really be present present for you."

"Well, we still appreciate what we get out of you. We all know your end isn't much easier than ours."

"Yeah." She kept swallowing like she was holding back a sob. This was deeper than just work stuff. It broke my heart.

"What's going on baby girl."

"Stop I should be asking you that right now cause I know you're upset yet I'm the bad girlfriend who's working."

"Hey woah wait no that's wrong don't say that. You're not a bad girlfriend at all. I get it okay? I know you have a lot that you have to do that's okay. You're supportive of us everyday, I can be supportive of you every night."

"It still makes me feel like shit." The tears in her eyes started falling and I was quick to wipe them away.

"But why baby? You know at the end of the day I'm still gonna love you even if you're working until midnight. You don't think there's nights I lie awake thinking about how I would've swung differently or ran the bases better or fielded a ball better? It's okay."

"It's still not fair. You still give me time and make time for me but I don't."

"I don't care. You're still with me. There's still time for us. It doesn't matter babe."

"But it matters to me."

"Well, what can I do to help you."

"I don't even know." She put her head in her hands and took a deep breath. I laid down next to her and pulled her into my chest.

"Tell me what you want. Whatever it is."

"Tell me about your day." I traced my fingers along her arms.

"Well it started by seeing my gorgeous girlfriend, that's you." She giggled and it made me smile. "And then we went to the field and got ready. There was an off vibe that I was getting and I think it was because my gorgeous girlfriend, you, was upset about something." She moved closer to me. "Well the game started and it wasn't going too hot for us. The Cubs just kept hitting off us. Not to mention I couldn't catch the ball today cause the wind was awful. Or hit, that was a mess. But it wasn't a shut out so that's at least good. Once the game ended I was interviewed by my gorgeous girlfriend, that's you again." She giggled again.

"Shut up." I smiled.

"And even though I had a bad day and she had a bad day, she put a smile on my face. I always have her to do that and she always has me to do that for her. I'm lucky I have her, and I love her a lot."

"I love you a lot too."

"And then we all cleaned up and started leaving to get to the hotel. And now I'm here with my gorgeous girlfriend laying on me."

We laid there in silence for a bit.

"What else do I need to do to help you."

"Lay here hold me and love me." I kissed the top of her head.

"I can gladly do that, I can do that everyday."

"Great cause I'm sleepy."

"Then sleep babe." She rolled over and completely laid on top of me.

"Night Yeli." I chuckled.

"Night baby girl."