Falling For Boys In Blue

Chapter 64

*a week later*
Kaitlyns pov

The Braves ended up beating the Mets the day after we beat the Cardinals. We took the first two in Atlanta and just got back yesterday for the next games. If we won the next two, we went to the World Series.

Everything was moving a lot faster than I thought it would. It felt like the next season was about to start when this one wasn't even over. It freaked me out a little. But I was excited for it.

There was a weird vibe between Jacob and I the past few weeks. I didn't know what it was. But part of me felt like we were both catching each other's vibes about how this was going to work. I wanted it to, I think I did at least, and I thought he did too but he never said anything. Yet neither did I. But I just didn't know if it would. Long distance almost never works out. That is a reason why I broke up with Corey in the first place.

Jacobs pov

I really didn't want to do this but I had to. I thought about this a lot, and it just needs to happen. She needs this, not me. So I have to let her go even though it'll kill me.

"Hey babe." She said as she walked through the hotel door.

"Hey." She walked over and kissed me before setting her stuff down.

"What'd you wanna do today?" She asked.

Today was an off day before the third NLCS game tomorrow. The Dodgers won the first two against Atlanta. If they won the next two games they went to the World Series.

"Um I'm not sure if I'm being honest."

"Yeah?" She turned around and leaned on the desk.

"Yeah." I looked at the floor, I couldn't look at her otherwise I'd just start crying.

"You okay?"

"Um." I scratched the back of my head. She kicked my foot.

"C'mon it's me." I looked up and her face softened. "Hey,"

"Sit down." She took my hands as she sat across from me.

"What's going on."

"You know how much I love you right?"

"Yeah." I looked her in the eyes as mine filled with tears. "Jacob,"

"I can't,"

"Jacob,"

"Kaitlyn listen,"

"No wait let's talk."

"Kaitlyn please listen." Her eyes filled with tears as she nodded her head.

"I love you,"

"And I love you too."

"But I can't do this to you. You're gonna be here in LA and I'm gonna be back in Milwaukee. I can't hold you back from your dreams."

"But you're not,"

"Yes Kaitlyn. I don't want you to stress out about a long distance thing. You've already said you're stressing about it and stressing about everything else and it would kill me if I was a reason too. You and I both know how long distance things don't really work out. I don't, I can't do that to you because I love you so much."

"But if,"

"I do, I do love you and that's why I'm letting you go. You gotta be free. I can't hold you down when I'm so far away. You deserve someone here. You can go be with Corey again,"

"But I don't,"

"Yes you do Kaitlyn,"

"No I don't. I don't want him."

"Kaitlyn it's okay. You guys are meant,"

"No. No we aren't."

"Yeah you are I know. I see how he looks at you still. It's okay now."

"Jacob,"

"Once I'm gone he'll swoop in and you'll be back together."

"But I don't want him."

"Kaitlyn,"

"NO JACOB I DON'T WANT HIM." Her voice cracked. She leaned our foreheads together. I swallowed the lump that was in my throat.

"Well I just want you to be successful. And you gotta do that without me so you can focus."

"But I don't wanna lose you."

"Sometimes you gotta lose the ones you love the most."

She wrapped her arms around me and buried her face in my neck. We both sobbed as we just held each other.

"I love you." She said as I hugged her tighter.

"I love you too." She let go and got up from the bed. She pulled out her suitcase and started packing.

"Hey wait no I'll go,"

"No it's okay. I got somewhere, places I could go. You stay here until you leave."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, it's okay."

I knew exactly where she was going. I sat there and watched her pack everything. She put her stuff by the door and turned to me. She wrapped her arms around me and rested her head against my chest. I rubbed her back.

"I'm always gonna love you you know."

"Yeah I know. I'm always gonna love you too." She went on her tiptoes and kissed me, one last time. It killed me when she backed away. Still holding my hand, she picked her backpack up. She slowly slipped her hand out of mine and grabbed the handle to her suitcase as she opened the door. She looked back and gave a small smile.

"I'll see you later Notty." I gave a small smile back.

"See you later Kait."

She nodded her head and closed the door behind her. My tears fell faster. I just watched the love of my life walk out the door.