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The taste of hatred (David/Martin &Timmy/Gonça)

The taste of Hatred

David feels like he's going to kill someone, even though he already knows who he wants to finish right away. On the one hand, he got fucked by Lewandowski, in every possible way, on the other hand, he hasn't been getting better since. He has a desire for mass destruction which is built in him, he would give a lot to be able to satisfy it. The problem is not to have had Lewandowski in his body, to have felt his cock inside him, his breath on his skin or any other horrible crap of this kind, the worst is to no longer be able to look at himself in the mirror without wanting to break it. He should see a psychologist for that, do yoga, something! But he doesn't find the strength, he can't admit that he let himself be used like a moron! Whatever he would give to be able to take revenge on the damn Polish, 5-1 last time wasn't enough for him. He knows that his teammates must have noticed that he can't relax, he's always upset, he must keep himself from tackling all the time, he doesn't want to tear off his ankles. Adi pointed out to him that he should avoid hitting the ball too hard, the seven-game red card didn't help. David will implode if he does nothing to help himself.

He asked Gonçalo to fuck him, he's the only one on the team he dared to talk to, the only one who understands his anger, he needs his help to get better, or at least no longer wanting to destroy everything he finds. Gonça accepted, surely out of pity for him, after all seeing his captain ask him in face to face to fuck him because he isn't able to get better after an unfortunate meeting with a Polish isn't the kind of things which will help to improve his situation. Gonça does come to his house, David doesn't need much to say that he is stressed. David is too, he doesn't know how their friendship will turn out after that. He asks himself so many questions while his cheek is against the pillow and Gonçalo is on him, doing his best not to be present on him. David doesn't know what he needs, is it forgetting Lewandowski or feeling what he did to him again? He can't explain that to Gonça.

"You need sweetness David, I don't know cap, but I don't want to do this to you anymore, do you think that helped you at least? You look even more lost now... I'm sorry, I don't know, I can't keep fucking you over and over until suddenly you get a taste for the pain and start doing what you would never have done before." Gonçalo tells him once they are done, David runs a hand through his curls stuck on his forehead with sweat, his eyes stuck on the increasingly long Portuguese hair, his friend is totally right and David knew it before he even asked him to do that, he's the only one to blame in this story, for being so stupid

"Thank you Gonça, find Timmy and tell him about your feelings, I don't... I don't want this not to happen because of me and my problems."

"You should try with Hinti, you know, not for sex, but at least to have his company, he's kind, he could help you more than me."

"I know, but I don't know how to approach him without looking totally weird."

"Do nothing, let it happen and you will see, he will be with you."

"So you're doing it?"

"You understood everything, cap."

David waits a few days with the same growing desire to screw up his life, to leave Frankfurt, the team, his other family, there are few things that keep him from the worst. His son, and the team, if not, he would have gone further than he thought.

Before he realizes it, Martin is at his home, preparing one of his unpronounceable Austrian meal, placing little kisses on his wrist. David can't believe Gonça really succeeded in his stupid plan. In addition, he also managed to get Timothy in his bed before he had time to ask him how his flirt was going. David probably underestimated Paciencia's ability to get what he wanted without having trouble. He will watch over him in the future, to make sure he doesn't take advantage of this gift to sleep with Chandler in the Commerzbank...

The End