NUR DIE SGE

Put Aside (Kevin/Jan)

Put aside

Jan had never accepted to be put aside, when there was still Lukas in Frankfurt, he understood how to let him do his work. But he had unfortunately had the hope of believing that he could play with the departure of his Finnish friend. He had hope for two months, the hope of finding playing time after a year on the bench. However, Trapp had come straight from Paris, he had taken the place of number one, he had stolen his hope. Jan therefore found himself once again on the bench, forced to watch the matches. He felt sorry for himself, ready to whine to play, and moreover he missed Lukas. He was waiting for Eintracht to play against Leverkusen to see him again, Lukas had always supported him and had always been by his side after defeats or difficult times. In fact, he missed other teammates like Alex and Prince, but he really missed Hradecky the most.

Besides not being able to play more than 40 minutes a year, Jan was not on good terms with his teammate and goalkeeper cadet, not that he didn't like him, just that he still had trouble with the fact to wear a chasuble on his jersey. He had grown up in Frankfurt, given many years there, Jan had just gone elsewhere to test other teams before coming back that the bench became his only friend. Trapp chatted with him to find out more about the teams they faced, Jan had at least more Bundesliga experience than him. In training, Jan made sure to stay with Moppes, not to rub shoulders with Trapp too much, he wasn't ready to bear his bright smile.

One day, after the 6-1 defeat to Leverkusen, Jan rehashed the words he had exchanged with Lukas. His friend had told him to keep believing, that one day he would play, Jan had held his tears while melting in his arms, he missed Lukas so much... Winning the Pokal with him had been a dream, he missed having him by his sides every day terribly and he couldn't help but feel a lot of bitterness over the facts of having to trade his friendship with Hradecky for a strained relationship with Kevin. After this hard defeat, Jan had sent a heavy black look to Trapp, first the bench and now that, his forgiveness was moving away from the other goalkeeper.

The return match against Chelsea in the Europa League semi-final arrived, Jan was as usual on the bench, watching the sad penalty shoot-out in the cold night. They had just lost. Despite his anger and frustration, Jan went to Kevin's side on the field, placing his hand on his shoulder and telling him that he had done a good job. He just hadn't expected Trapp to drop into his arms, sniffing painfully, Jan had been genuinely surprised, it had taken him a few seconds to hug him, his hands rubbing his back slowly. Usually, it was Lukas he held, or who held him, sharing this kind of moment with Kevin had never been planned, it was with Luka and Ante, or even Seb that he wanted to do that. He wasn't close to Trapp, and even though his feelings seemed to change for him, Jan didn't want their relationship to develop.

The next day, back in Frankfurt, Jan had left to ask Luka and Ante for advice, he had learned that they were still having a relationship with their former coach now at Bayern, they seemed to him to be the best people to help him with his feelings. The Serbian and the Croatian had told him to go talk with Trapp, to explain themselves and to take stock, so Jan had taken his courage in both hands before going to Kevin's house to talk with him. It was a stupid idea. He knew it, but he didn't understand it until too late, on the doorstep of the keeper's door after knocking on the door. Kevin came to open him, looking nonchalant, Jan felt uncomfortable, he shouldn't have come... Trapp led him in, guiding him to his kitchen, Jan didn't know how he was going to introduce his problem, but it was becoming a problem for his tired mind.

"Are you alright Jan?" Kevin asked him, sitting down next to him.

"Yeah... Well, we need to talk."

"I think so too. Jan, I'm sorry for Chelsea, I'm sorry for ruining your reunion with Hradecky...''

"Kevin, nothing is your fault, you did your best, and for Lukas, don't worry, we're going to stay friends."

"Jan, I'm sorry I took your place, I know how much you wanted to play, the coach doesn't want to listen to me anymore..."

"It doesn't matter Kevin, your career has a better future than mine."

"Jan... How can I be forgiven?"

''No need.''

"No, really, I don't see you often happy, let me fix this, please..."

"Kevin..."

Jan whispered while Kevin put his hands on his cheeks, his eyes fixing him gently, he had to leave, it shouldn't go too far... And then, Kevin kissed him. Jan's eyes widened in surprise, Trapp's hands running down his cheeks to his chest, soon slipping under his t-shirt, despite his feelings, he couldn't help but melt under the keeper's lips. Kevin wrapped his arms around his waist to lift him from his chair, before lifting him from the ground, Jan clung to him, clenching his teeth, they were almost the same size and yet Kevin seemed huge compared to him. Trapp put him in his room, Jan felt his legs shake, he was ridiculous... Kevin kissed him again while laying above him on the bed, Jan didn't know what to do so he put his arms around the neck of the keeper, amplifying the kiss in a way. When they stopped, Jan was red and breathless, while Kevin smiled running his hands under his t-shirt again, tracing the lines of the muscles he unnecessarily maintained almost every day.

''How was sex with Lukas?'' Trapp asked him, biting his skin over the navel

"W-What?" Jan was burning from the inside

"Come on Jan, you're close, something must have happened."

'' I... Lukas was sweet, we only slept together once, but I think it was the best night of my life, besides we had just won the Pokal, it was our last game together...'' he really missed Lukas...

"Oh, I'll try to give you the second best night of your life."

Kevin put his hair back in place, Jan hated it when strands betrayed him to ruin his haircut... Jan lost the track of his life for half a day while Kevin made him live as he called him the second best night of his life. Jan dozed in Kevin's arms, the moonlight illuminating them, his relationship with Trapp had changed completely in a very short time, and he was still surprised.

The next day, Lukas called him, Jan did not hide from him that he had found a way to occupy another bed again than his', Hradecky had congratulated him with a laugh. Jan thanked him before admitting he missed him anyway, and Lukas replied that they would soon have time to meet again with the holidays. Jan didn't know if Kevin could fill the void in his heart since Lukas left for Leverkusen, but at least he knew he wanted to try something with him.

The End