I will never be the same without you...

Chapter 22 [NSFW]

Saifah's Song: Ben Harper - Marvin Gay cover, "Sexual Healing"

Zon's Song: Meg Myers, "Desire"

[Saifah]

I could not believe I forgot to hide that stupid book. Triple damn!! To distract Zon from my embarrassing hobby, I lunged for it. The goal was to steal it back, but instead, I ended up toppling on him. ARRRGH!! As I stared into his handsome face, I felt every centimetre of his body under mine. I was unable to resist kissing him. Lightning coursed down my spine, igniting every single nerve along the way. I worried instantly he would be uncomfortable and feel...well... everything. I didn't want to scare him off again. I gently broke the kiss, stood up and pretended to get busy putting my clothes away so I could cool off. Breathe, Saifah!! You're not a teenager anymore, get it together!!!

[Zon]

Is that jackass trying to be a noble idiot again? He scampered like a scared bunny the second things heated up. Oh no you don't, you jerk! I've had to wait five years for another chance, I'm not going to let you shy away from what is happening between us! I watched him put his things away and his book on a shelf. I turned to my side and closed my eyes, hoping he'd come back to bed if I looked asleep. I didn't expect him to leave the room instead. What the hell!

[Saifah]

He looks so tired and sleepy, I don't want to disturb him. If I lie down, I won't be able to resist touching him and wanting him. I'll just go sleep on the couch. It's not that uncomfortable, and it's more important to let him rest. Come on Saifah, you're better than this! You can control yourself, just let him be. I had a hard time leaving him in my bed, looking cuddly and soft.

[Zon]

Oh, hell no!! It's ok if he doesn't want to fool around or even cuddle, but he's not leaving me alone in bed. His couch is too short anyway, and I don't want him to be sore tomorrow morning. Come on Zon, take a few deep breaths and go get him. I cannot believe he's making me do this, that considerate idiot.

[Saifah]

I may have spoken too fast, this is really uncomfortable. Urrrgh! This is going to be a long and horrible night. All I can think of is Zon in my bed. I remember his scent. Hmmm. Why does he have to smell so good? Wait, is that the door? Maybe he needs some water. I should get up and ask. As I sat up, he stood in front of me.

"Zon, I thought you fell asleep. Do you need anything?"

"Yes, you big lummox. I need you! Why are you sleeping on the couch?"

"Huh what?... I thought you were tired, and well, I didn't want to disturb you."

"Sai, considering the past we have, didn't it occur to you to, I don't know, maybe ask me what I wanted, or even better, tell me what YOU want?"

He was irritated. I guess he had a right to be; I had presumed to know his feelings instead of talking to him... again. Urgh! I could kick myself.

"I'm sorry."

I could only see his silhouette in the darkness, I reached up for his hand and took a deep breath.

"Zon, is it ok if I sleep with you?" I felt hopeful.

"Yes, of course! I've never had a problem with that before."

"That's true." Why was I so nervous? "But, I want.. err... well, I'd like maybe a little more than sleep, if...I mean..."