Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 35: WAVES

"What?" he asked putting his hands on the table.

"Bola kuch." She still didn't look at him.

"par kya bola?" he asked.

"Kaise Aap college me ladkiyon ko tadte the!" She said. This time she looked at him.

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"Excused me! Main? I wasn't like this. It was Kunal who had a crush on her since college days. So he used to go there and I went there only for Kunal. He needed me for support. I didn't even looked at anyone" he blurted out explaining her. But why does he need to do that. Why it was important for him to explain her when he don't like to give explanation to anyone. But that moment it was necessary for him to explain this to her so that she doesn't portray him as a Casanova. Why? It wasn't needed here.

"Accha hain," she gave a cold reply looking at him. Showing lack of her trust in that. But again the question, why she should she care about it. However he was at his college day, why should it bother her for gave it a thought even.

He rolled his eyes.

"Trust me. I went to meet the girls with Kunal. Only for Angie. I didn't even talk to them." He again explained himself. With genuine eyes. That made Shehnaaz feel bad at his condition So she just smiled and said.

"Okay." She said and Sidharth let out a loud breath.

Sidharth was driving the car with Shehnaaz sitting with him silently. The car drive was silent but Sidharth's mind wasn't.

'What kunal said might not be true but I did give an explanation to her. why did I need to do that? Why did I made her this important? Isn't this what you were afraid of? Getting attached to someone who can have that much power to hurt your feelings. You decided to marry her for a reason, then why this is growing. It was better when She used to hate you. She couldn't even tolerate you before her eyes. That was good. You deserved that. after what you did. But now, this, your changing feelings can destroy you. Like before. You don't have a place for anyone like this in your life. You can't do this. Even if it feels good to see a future, even if It feels like a complete happy family when she is with Mom and Me. But I can't do this. I won't be able to bear all that again. I should talk to her. But What and how and From where.'

Sidharth looked at her, she was resting her head in the side door, lips humming in something but wasn't clearly audible. He again looked at the front.

"Shehnaaz?" he said softly.

"Haan?" she looked at him.

"Ghar jana hain abhi?" he asked her.

"Kyun? Aapko kahi aur jana?"

"Wohh. In the evening I said, we need to talk." He said and Shehnaaz sat straight. "Lets go somewhere else."

"Ma?" she asked.

"She is with preity. Don't worry." He replied.

"Okay." She said. Shehnaaz clutched her purse tighter. There was silence again. Shehnaaz looked at the night sky from the window. Thinking how her life changed in last 2 month. Since she met him. First he hit her by his car, then he took care of her. again he was so formal with her like a gentlemen, then he forced her to marry him. He has always been very confusing.

Sidharth parked the car when She finally looked down from the sky. It was marine drive. She looked at him when he gestured her to get out. She did. And they walked a little to a rock big enough to sit there. he again pointed his finger to the rock for Shehnaaz to sit on. And he took another smaller one opposite from Sana. Facing her.

The sea breeze was so smooth, it was melting whatever the havoc was in their mind for a while. Shehnaaz's hair waved through the breeze. She had a smile plastered in her face. she was having her peace time looking at the waves of the sea. Sidharth also felt good. He saw Shehnaaz struggling with her hair tugging behind her ear. He killed his urge to do that. he looked away. He let his soul to feel the soothing breeze. but his mind went to somewhere he wanted to forget.

Sidharth was 30 when he first met Riya. She was an actress. He met her in a friend's party. Their interaction was good. She was quite beautiful and a person who can talk sweet. They talk for a quite long time which was unusual for Sidharth. They both flirted with each other which led them to bed together. Like every interaction of his at this kind of parties has only that motive. They were both single and adult to do whatever. Sidharth thought that it was just a regular one night stand but he find her the next day in his hospital. She waited till he finished all his work which impressed him a bit. An actress, despite having a busy schedule waited for him. He finished and took her to dinner.

That night too they ended up together.

Like that. they started meeting quite regularly. Whenever she was free she called him and they became good companion to each other. Sidharth found someone who was pretty much interested in him. They had wild nights together which made her yearn for him more. Of course he was a man with needs to. They went along together from an one night stand to meeting regularly.

She started giving interviews talking about her crush indicating him without mentioning his name. Sidharth liked that. Meeting him more often. Ending up every time together. He thought their whatever relationship that was, was getting serious from her side.

He thought why shouldn't he getting along?

So he talk to his mother about a girl for the first time. She was more than happy. He brought her to his home. To met his Mom.

He fell for her.

But one day. There was a massage in Riya's phone in the morning when she was in the washroom. he read it from the notification.

'Haven't you finished with him?'

He was confused. What does that mean? He thought to let it go as it doesn't have a clear meaning. He closed his eyes when the phone pinged again.

He curiously looked at it

'Ohh, come on Riya. Meet me tonight. Leave your fucking doctor for a day.' His scrunching sleepy eyes widened.

What the fuck was that. He sat on the bed with a jerk and took her phone in his hand. Wanted to see the massage again to be sure but it was locked. He tried some patterns but failed when another popped up.

'Riya. At least reply babe. I'm asking for one night only. This isn't new for us right. Why are you doing this?'

Sidharth was now sweating. he was so reserved all his life after his father's death. It can't be what he is thinking. No, this can't happen with him. Not after loving someone. Thinking about a future with her. He gripped the phone tighter. Then again pinged.

'Just one night babe. I will make you forget your recent fucking entertainment I promise.'

He couldn't hold it anymore, he walked towards the washroom door and banged it. Screaming her name.

"RIYAAAA"

A wild wave came jerked Sidharth to his present. He restlessly looked around. He saw Shehnaaz in front of his eyes. She watching the sea. Sidharth's heart pinched remembering some of his hurtful past. Even that wasn't the worst part but it even shook him. there was a pain in his chest. Whatever he thought when he came here was gone. He was now in pain and he saw Shehnaaz.

He walked two stepped to her very fast, grabbed her by both of him arm, stood her up and hugged her like his life depended on it.

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