Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 59: CLOSENESS

"Shehnaaz" with the huskiest tone he said near her ear. She felt his breathe on her ear. Shehnaaz sitting still with closed eyes leaning totally on him. She never get to hear his this voice. That sound was too hot.

"Hmmmmmnn" she just hummed. He pretty well knows this tone. He wanted to stop himself and talk it down but her sound made him loose it. Now he doesn't want to stop. This was totally new to them. He is hugging her so close from behind. She is sitting in between his legs. She is all over surrounded by him.

She is captivated by him. Not only by physical being but also mentally. She was just feeling his touch still with her eyes closed.

"You are beautiful" he said near her ear. He saw her lips curving a little. She was holding a pillow till now. On her lap. She released it and held his hands which were holding her. She is not gonna take her step back. Why would she? Nobody could make her feel like he does. The new touch was soothing their heart. Sidharth face also had a grin just the moment Shehnaaz held him.

She didn't say anything nor did she open her eyes. Totally leaned on him. Sidharth had the liberty to watch her enticing body from this close and with right for the first time so he didn't even bother to look anywhere else.

"You are comfortable?" he asked.

"Bohut" she said that made his grin getting wider in his face. Shehnaaz realized she could just said haan, I'm comfortable but no she said Bohut. Like seriously. She is leaning on him and said that. But that was the reality. She actually was very comfortable resting her back on his broad chest, feeling their closeness and unfolding their relationship.

"Then the idea of getting the swing was so good. We can spend our spare time here from now" he said and she opened her eyes getting down from the land she was in her mind with his touch.

"Ye aap ke dimaag me kaise aya" she asked lifting her head to upward. His face was just above her head.

"I don't know. Aise hi. I saw it online and knew that we need this." he said. She rested her head again like before. Like she was claiming her right over him. Without hesitation this time.

After sometime she yawned and got an audible chuckle from him. He was looking at her all the time when she was feeling him with her closed eyes. She looked at him with questioning eye.

"What?" she asked about the reason behind his chuckle.

"You love sleep, right?" he asked.

"Haan..!! kyun?" she asked again.

"Because you just got up barely 3 or 4 hours ago and you are yawning." He said looking down at her, where she moved her head to a side on his chest to get a better view of him. Resting on her cheek.

"Iss liye?" she said. He shook his head.

"No, because I have also seen you sleeping. Lights on ho ya off, Kitna bhi awaaz ho, tum uthti nehi ho. You also make a cute pout when you sleep. You sleep too deep." He said rubbing her hand by his finger. She blushes.

'Iska kya matlab hua! Kya ye Dr. mujhe raat ko sote huye dekhta hain? hein! Ye bhi ho raha tha! Aur mujhe kuch pata hi nehi chala. Sach hi to bol raha hain Sana. Sone ke baad tujhe kuch pata bhi hota hain kya?'

"You are such a baby sometimes" he said giving her another squeeze. She giggled hearing him.

"No, actually. Tumhe samajh na mushkil hai. Kya ho tum!! Kabhi kabhi bilkul baccho jaisi aur kabhi kabhi bohut samajhdar." She looked at him hearing him.

"Uss din jab main Dad ko yaad karr raha tha. Udaass tha to tumne mujhe kitni acche se sambhala. Mujhe uss din tumhare bahoon me wohh sukoon mila jo mujhe Mom se milti thi. The way you cradled me in your arm, gave me so much relief. Jis tarha tumne mujhe sambhala usse pata chalta hain ki tum kitni samajhdar ho. Aur tumhari Ngo me bhi to kitni muskile aati hai, tum wohh bhi sambhal leti ho. Jaabse hamare ghar me ho tab se ye ghar ko, Mom ko bhi acche se sambhal liya. Tohh tum bohut smajhdaar ho" he said looking into her eyes when she was staring at him hearing every single things with her heart. She can see the proudness in his eyes for her. She felt overwhelmed. Nobody noticed her the way he was doing. Not even her own family.

"Phir kabhi kabhi bilkul baccho jaisi. Baccho ke tarha hasti ho, choti choti chizo pe khush ho jato ho. Gussa aa jata hain kabhi bhi. I think specially mujhpe" he chuckled and she giggled. "Like thori der pehele hi jab main beith nehi raha tha. Because I had a thing about the weight. You were ready to push me in the swing" she giggled harder. "See, even now you are giggling over this. These things make you a baby. Such a cute baby!!" he said to a giggling Shehnaaz.

"Issi liye bola tumhe samajhna mushkil hain. Tum dil me aati ho, Samajh me nehi!!!!!!!!." Shehnaaz liked what he said. It went straight to her heart. But she was Shehnaaz, She wanted to hear it again. So she again rested her head on his chest and closed her eyes and asked

"Matlaab" she had a smile plastered in her face.

"Matlaab tum sidha Dil me aati ho!!! Tumhe samajh ne ke liye bhi Dil hi chahiye. Dimaag nehi. Tum unpredictable ho" Saying so he kissed on her head. She likes hearing about her through others. It was her old habit. But getting it from Sidharth that is also when she is covered by him all over was doing something else on her. She wanted to keep listening to him. Whatever he has to say. Whatever he thought of her. She wanted to listen. She wanted to life take her wherever it wanted to take her. The feeling she was getting today was so unusual. She wasn't used to this.

This Sunday is so good. Good for them both. They never really enjoyed this kind of companionship. Where you can just sit with a person and talk to him/her or just enjoy the silence. Like they were doing right now. Sundays should be like this.

It was so different for Sidharth before Shehnaaz. He used to over work. Sometimes he went to clubs with his friends. Where companionships were on a exchange deal with money. Not that he wanted to have their company. He didn't even talk more than needed. He couldn't touch any girl after he met Shehnaaz. Not that it was his commitment to their marriage was holding him, he couldn't do it even before their marriage. Since he saw Shehnaaz. That accident. He remembered how he left Shefali that day because he couldn't get Shehnaaz out from his mind. She is all over his mind from the day one.

He leaned his head on his back and he pulled her a little to himself. She also wiggled to get more comfortable in his arms. She was sleepy a little. She pulled her legs to herself and placed them over his one leg. That made her leaned herself on another side of his chest. Resting herself on her cheek there, her eyes still closed. Like a baby. This sight just made Sidharth's heart flattered. Shehnaaz who couldn't tolerate him some days ago, now getting herself totally covered by him. She is making herself comfortable with him. He knew she was hesitating when he called her to sit between his legs. And now!!!! Both of them enjoying the silence with someone with their closed eyes when one can only feel everything by heart. He smiled reminding himself how they came here. From being strangers to feeling a pull to herself. Denial about that, holding back. His past trying to scare him with possible consequences. But nothing really worked for him when it was for Shehnaaz. He couldn't hold back anymore.

He wants a normal happy life with this beautiful soul. From watching her from distance, stealing glances from her to sit her almost in his lap, holding her from everywhere, squeezing her more and more to feel her more. With a right of a husband. And there she was! Enjoying this equally. Never ones complaining about anything. With a big wide grin plastered on her face. Taking everything with a smile whatever he gave. Whether it was his touch or a compliment. Reciprocating in a way he never imagined she would ever do. He knows her enough to say that she likes his touch. It was so relieving that he wasn't the only one in this feelings.

After a while he looked at her. She was still like before. It was evening.

"Shehnaaz" he said.

"Hmmm? She responded.

"Go get ready Baby. We are going somewhere." He finished when Shehnaaz opened her eyes wide.

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