Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 84: DON'T GO AWAY

Sidharth was standing outside of his car... Leaning on it... His phone was in his hand... Maybe waiting for her or her text to come... But she wasn't replying or coming... He was about to call her when he heard the gate open... And she came out of it... She looked at him... She stopped walking...

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Shehnaaz just stopped there... Not moving an inch after watching him...

Sidharth was confused... Before he let any thought come to his mind, he was right next to her taking long strides and hugged her... Oblivious to everything happened today, Sidharth was still on their trance of last night... When they were pouring their love out on each other... A little bit passionate than the other nights... When she started calling him baby... He had smile on his lips... Which doesn't really want to leave his face... He was smitten by her all over... Not that he minded even a bit...

Shehnaaz stood still... She didn't hold him back... She can feel his smiles even though she isn't looking at him... She just knows it... How!!! Well that's only her heart can say... And the hold on her back, the tight grip he had on her, screams how much he missed her... She closed her eyes again... How can this all be lie??? Whatever is happening!!! How she observed him as a person... How all of that can be wrong all of a sudden... She again felt choked... The hold, where she found her solace is now choking her... He broke apart when he understood her not reciprocating the hug... He looked at her... She looked so pale...

"Hey, Sweetheart... What happened?? Why do you look so pale?" he asked cupping her face and bending a little down to look at her...

Shehnaaz looked at him... He looked worried... His eyes showing genuine concern for her... She knows it's real... She knows all of this is real... She can sense that... But what she saw today??? He has a lot to answer her... She needs to know...

When she didn't answer he asked...

"What happened baby?? You look so stressed... Is something bothering you??" he was still bended towards her... His eyes were trying to capture every movement of hers... That's what he always does whenever she doesn't say anything or look stressed...

Shehnaaz wanted to scream it to his face... That, it's you who is bothering me...

But she kept mum...

Sidharth was getting impatient over her quietness... Is something bad happened to her??? Why she is not responding...

"Shehnaaz... Kya hua???" he jerked her... She again looked at his eyes... How this eyes can be wrong... How this eyes can lie to her for these long...

"Um... nothing... just tired..." she said... She doesn't wanna have anything here on the road... If they will talk about this then it will be on their home... Not here on the road...

Though Sidharth wasn't convinced, he took her to the car holding her over her shoulder... He made her sit and sat along with her in the backseat... While his driver was driving...
Shehnaaz wasn't sitting like they used to sit together... Close and entangled... She sat on the farthest corner of her side watching out of the window... Sidharth didn't like the distance between them... Ever since they came along, they were always intimate... Touching each other, peaking, entangling their hands... But today he felt his hands so empty... He was looking at her... She sat there leaning on her back, closing her eyes... He thought she must be very tired... So he thought not to disturb her and let her rest... He switched the back seat's light off... Shehnaaz felt it... Her heart again pinched... He cares for her... She knows this... She cursed her situation... She wished all this were wrong and lie...

They got out of car and headed towards their home leaving a betrayer who can do anything in exchange of money...

"Yes, Ma'am...Shehnaaz Ma'am seemed very off today... They weren't talking like usual."

"No,, She didn't say anything.."

"Okay, I'll update you if anything happens"

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The dinner was quiet and calm... As Shehnaaz, the chirping bird was silent today... Sidharth told his Mom that she is tired and has a headache... So it was quiet...

Rita ji entered with a glass of milk in her hand along with a Sidharth who had medicines in his hand...

"Take these, you will feel better..." he said towering over her standing near the bed where she was seated... Rita ji was beside him... She put the glass on the table... Shehnaaz took the medicines without any question... Rita ji caressed her hair and made her finish the milk... She left after that...

Sidharth sat next to her on his side of the bed... He dimmed all the light in the room... He came close and started rubbing his fingers on her head... She didn't stopped him or act different... She couldn't decide what to do... Her mind wasn't working...

Shehnaaz's heart was crying seeing all the love she gets from him... How can this man be a heartless person who can kill his own child when he came after having his own long tiring day and now trying to helping her out of her misery??? How can he worry about her this much if he hasn't this in him... How can he be that cruel of a person who can make his girlfriend abort his child??? Her heart was screaming and shouting inside her, telling her to believe this man who is being just the best possible of a man... She cried inside her closed eyes... Sidharth couldn't see it... The light was low... She rubbed her tears off... Took a deep breath and made her mind...

'No... How can I trust some random person whom I didn't even know before today?? It's Sidharth who I have known for so many months... My husband... No, how I can already believe all that...I should give this whole thing at least a benefit of doubts and shouldn't just push this man away... What if this all is a big lie?? I can't just punish a man if he didn't do all these... No, I won't do anything indifferent before I get sure... Should I ask him all about it??? If it's all a lie then it can get cleared right now..." She looked up at him... He slept right there leaning his head on the bedrest... He didn't even properly lay down on the bed...

'Nehi... I shouldn't just ask him... Let me be sure about this first... if it's true or not...' with that thought she closed her eyes... Her medicines kicked in and she got into a slumber...

At midnight she felt him holding her tightly in her stomach... She opened her to look back and saw him closed eyes but rubbing himself to her... Like last night... Maybe subconsciously... But it wasn't anymore weirder for them... He always does this in his sleep... He kissed her on her nape... He started rubbing his hands on her stomach still his eyes close... It wasn't anything new to her... But tonight she couldn't take it like before... She closed shut her eyes again... She again felt like crying... Though she had decided not to believe in all that without proof, she couldn't stop her thinking all that again and again... She moved a little ahead freeing herself from his hold... But the next moment she felt him moving and coming closer to her... He again held her and locked her in himself... So that she won't get away from him... He mumbled in his sleepy voice...

"Don't go away please..." he nuzzled his nose on her shoulder, placing ever so sweet kisses all over her shoulder and behind her neck... And with all that Shehnaaz couldn't stop herself and cried... Silently... With his every kisses she cried... Out of guilt of not being able to trust him enough... Out of lack of surety that it can also be true... Out of rage thinking there can still be a possibility of him doing that... They say, Silent crying is the painful crying of them all...He doesn't have any idea what is going in her mind...What is she dealing with... She was scared... She was scared like hell...

Did she just fall in lovewith a wrong person???

HERE GOES A LITTLE LONGER UPDATE FOR YOU ALL LOVELIES... SOME WERE ASKING FOR LONGER UPDATES... BUT AS YOU GUYS KNOW, I UPDATE DAILY SO IT IS JUST NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME AS I HAVE TO DEAL WITH MY LIFE ALSO... I'M AN MBA STUDENT AND A WIFE... IF YOU WANT LONGER UPDATE THEN I CAN UPDATE IN EVERY 2 OR 3 DAYS... SO TELL ME HOW YOU GUYS WANT IT... 

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