Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 20: UPSIDE DOWN

Sidharth's heart pinched. It started to pain even knowing he won't do otherwise but she also don't see him like that was so disappointing. She is not looking for it. That's mean she doesn't have any place in her life for him.

'Why does it hurt you Sidharth? You are the one who refused that in the first place. Don't let yourself go there again. Nobody can hurt you till you give them the power to do that. Stick to that. Save yourself from getting hurt. This little pain will save you from getting hurt till death.' Sidharth thought looking blank into her eyes. Those sparkle in her eyes were long gone. They were cold and not a small amount of emotion were there. She looked very serious.

Sidharth wanted to say something. Actually ask why she is not looking for any relationship. But he cannot ask. He doesn't have that much right on her. Both remained silent at least for 5 minutes. Sidharth never once moved his gaze from her where Shehnaaz didn't look at her. She was looking at her phone. Sidharth's mind never stopped thinking. He was visibly hurt.

Shehnaaz was looking at her phone. She couldn't decide if she should leave or stay there a little. It was really getting tough for her to stay a minute more there. She felt less and incapable in his eyes. She loves herself. She couldn't take this so easily. But she doesn't want to let him know about that.

After what it felt like ages she lifted her eyes up hearing waiter's voice.

"Mam" saying so the waiter placed a chocolate milk shake in front of Shehnaaz. "Sir" saying that he placed an orange juice near Sidharth.

"Thank you" she said "Thanks" he said. Both of them said at the same time.

The waiter left.

Sidharth said moving a little in his chair. Gripping the glass in his hand. Hesitantly asked her "Are we alright after all these?"

Shehnaaz looked at him with a jerk. He wants everything to be the same even after him rejecting her. She chuckled in disgust.

"There is no WE, Dr. Sidharth." With the same cold pitch.

Sidharth felt a punch in his guts hearing that. His heart broke into pieces. His throat felt dry because of pain. he didn't expected a sweet cute bubbly Shehnaaz say these hurtful word. What he doesn't know was he already have hurt her a lot with his words.

Oblivious to his own words regarding rejection, he felt bad hearing her words.

They couldn't say anything else to each other. They left saying just bye to each other. Sidharth kept standing till Shehnaaz rode in a cab. He got in his car after she left. That day was hard and hurtful to both.

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TWO month later.

Sidharth scrunched his eyes shut tight feeling the sun light falling in his eyes suddenly. He groaned in anger. He punched his fist in bed.

"Shehnaaaaaazzzz." He shouted angrily.

"Subah subah kutte ki tarha matt chikho." Shehnaaz picked the same pitch like Sidharth. There she was, standing near a window holding curtains in her hand which she just moved. In a satin night top with satin short.

Sidharth groaned like a lion in anger. He almost jumped to sit. He was really disgusted. He threw the pillows on the floor near Shehnaaz's feet. The same pillows he had in between his legs.

Shehnaaz didn't picked those up. She kicked them with a disgusted face saying "Ewwwww" like it was something dirty,

She was disgusted at them because these pillows belong to Sidharth and that was enough for her to hate them. At least after all he did to her.