Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 64: YOU DON'T HAVE TO!!!!

They weren't sleeping. He didn't leave her for a single moment since she came into his arm. She also held him as much she could by her one hand on his back and another one between them trapped... Shehnaaz felt his hand all over her back. She felt so touched. She just kept her eyes close and feel him... She moved her head from his shoulder and rested it on his chest. He rested his chin on her head...

He gave her a squeeze as she moved. He loves to do that. Squeezing her soft form by his strong arm... She loves it too..

There was a sexual disturbance running on their mind... They both were fighting it.. And somehow they both know this too what was going on their mind... But he doesn't want to get hasty with her. This, whatever is building up between them was for a lifetime. He wants to cherish every moment and take it slow... He doesn't want to make her feel it was only physical... It wasn't.. If it was then it would have been easier for him to get detached from her which apparently he couldn't...

Where Shehnaaz was still struck at his confession... Though he didn't say it all what she felt was behind his tongue.. But she felt it.. As she was holding him so close, she felt this is going to be her life from now on.. This man is going to consume her totally... He is going to claim her in every way.. He will claim her soul, her mind, her body, her heart and everything.. There is no coming back from here... She is making her heart ready for that..

"You are sleeping???" he asked almost inaudible... Not wanting to wake her up if she was..

"nnhhuuu" she sounded snuggling on him more. Sidharth squeezed shut his eyes. This girl is making it harder for him as her face is moving on his chest... He knows she sometimes behaves like a grumpy kid and do all this. He loves all that too.. But now when she was in his arm, her face moving on his chest can make the situation turn into something he doesn't want to create.

Already her bare feet is creating much problem to his mind as they were close to his bare ones. They both wore shorts.. They weren't entangling them.. He wanted so badly but thinking of the possibility it can create, he didn't...

And then her chest was also plastered on a little lower on his chest. Giving him a full idea of the softness... He felt it more whenever she was moving.. It was already hard to have a glimpse of it. Now the feel!!! SHIT

If it was hard to live away from Shehnaaz when she was always before his eyes, it was going to be harder when she is in his arms. He cussed under his breath at his condition... But at the same time it was one of the best moment of his life. So remembering it and trying to keep him calm he kissed her head.. She smiled...

"Soh kyun nehi rahi ho? Kaal jana hain na Ngo?" he said softly. He never thought she would talk to someone like this soft...

"Haan, Nind ayegi to soh jayungi." She mumbled and that made his situation the worst. Her face was plastered on his chest and when she mumbled all that her breath hit him there along with her lips moving and he felt it getting stiff down there. He was trying to control his thoughts but couldn't...

He opened his eyes wide and moved backward from his lower side.. He doesn't want her to get the idea of his stiffness.. He was holding her by his arms like before, just pushed his hip a little backward.

'Fuck Sidharth. She shouldn't know this. What she might just think of you.. If she misunderstood it by thinking it only physical.. SHIT just control your emotions.. You are a stupid person for not to wearing a brief tonight.'

He prayed that she doesn't get it. Also he made up his mind about wearing briefs every night.. Despite how much he hated it.

But he felt his universe was trying to put him inside the grave tonight.. Feeling the space between them Shehnaaz pushed herself to him from where she felt the emptiness... The lower side from her waist.. Sidharth scrunched his eyes shut.. He is gone!! He is so gone.. This can be so embarrassing.. Shehnaaz needed some seconds to feel it near one side of her lower waist... The moment she got it she opened her eyes wide and pulled her head backward to see him.. His eyes was squeezed shut.. She knows why..

She couldn't get what she should do!!! Should she move back from him or should she stay same and pretend like she didn't get anything!!! She was in a difficult situation where she needed to decide fast what to do.. But nothing was working on her mind..

Suddenly leaving everything aside she watched his face.. He looked guilty.. She knew what he must be feeling right now!!! How embarrassed he must be feeling right now!!! It wasn't even his fault.. When she should have felt something else, she felt pity towards him.. Looking at his embarrassed shutting closed eyes, she decided what she would do...

Thinking so she pushed herself up and took his lips on hers.. Why should she left him feel like the guilty one.. Didn't she feel the same sexual tension?? Wasn't it doing something to her?? It was natural and she can't let him feel guilty for that.. So she did what she thought she should for freeing him from his guilt.

Sidharth never in his wildest dream dreamt that.. He expected her to move from him, she would make a distance from him and that idea almost killed him.. She will go away from his hold because of that.. But what he felt on his lips startled him..

Shehnaaz came and kissed him.. He opened his guilty closed eyes when he felt her sucking his lips so sweetly and slowly.. Not like the one they did in the restaurant.. That was wild. But it is gentle, sweet. A kiss that calmed all his tension. Her eyes were closed. She was giving him sweet peaks after sometimes. She knew if she continue sucking his lips then it may worsened his situation. She knew how to handle the situation. How to calm his senses down.

She opened her eyes and looked at him. He mumbled

"Wohh,, I,, umm" he couldn't say a word properly. She held his face from both of her hand and shushed him.

"You don't have to.. It's okay!!!" She was concerned. He kept quiet. She caressed his face. His eyes were fixed at this pure soul. She was caressing him with so much of adoration..

"It happens, there's nothing to feel guilty about." She kept touching his face. He felt so overwhelmed. All she was worried about to make sure he doesn't feel guilty. It didn't bother her what she felt there. She kissed him so that he feels good. And how the hell this girl made all his senses down by kissing him.. How!!! It was supposed to get worse for him but NO. Shehnaaz exactly knew how to handle situation.

"How I got so lucky to have you Baby?" he mumbled near her lips. She was close to his face. A smile crept over her face as he said that.. She didn't answered that. She didn't have to.. It wasn't a question!!!!

He pulled her close and hugged her tight. He was overwhelmed. He was content to have her.. She snuggled into him more and got comfortable.. Sleep took over them when they both had a blissful smile tugged on their lips..

Life is so unpredictable. There was a time when it was difficult to tolerate one in the same room.. And now, the table has turned and how!!! They cant even sleep without having each other in their arms, in their hold.. Yeah, they say it right.. Once you choose to get to addicted to love, there's no coming back....!!!!!

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