Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 95: MINGLING TEARS

"Wohh Baccha aapka nehi tha??" Her face had a sudden spark... Her heart which was paining till now had found some solace... The battle inside her calmed down...

"Nehi" He looked at her... Another of his hand came and hold their entangling hands... They both held their hand and trying to find some solace on each other...

He felt relieved telling her everything... There is now no chance of her having a misunderstanding... He has told everything that a wife needed to know about her husband... Like she had asked him... Little did he regret about telling her all these earlier... That way there wouldn't have this fight... This ugly fight where she accused him of deceiving her by keeping this a secret between them... She is not totally wrong here...

She felt her heart calming down a great deal... The way she got scared of this all being true is long gone from her heart... This man sitting in front of her couldn't be that bad... Her heart had always said that to her... He just had a really really bad past... A disgusting women who literally had done anything and everything wrong to win him... How could someone stood so low... She now was sure he wasn't the one who killed that baby... She regret of not keeping a little more faith on him...

"I wish I had said it all before" his regretful voice came so low... "It's just... It's just I never wanted to remember all these... These things had traumatized me so bad that I was scared to say it all out... I was scared Shehnaaz..." He looked at her with eyes that screamed all his feeling out... Shehnaaz never wanted to see him this vulnerable... He has gone through a lot... She held his hand more tightly... Before she could say anything, he said

"I know,, nothing could justify for not telling you all these before... I'm sorry because I didn't... I know trust is everything in a relationship... It can't be the same once it's broken... I know because I felt it... And today I saw it in your eyes..." His eyes were getting moist... Unshed tears were forming there... He was trying hard to stay strong...

Shehnaaz couldn't understand or she understood but didn't wanted to understand, so she asked... Getting scared in her heart...

"Kya?" She hoped this won't be bad for them..

"Broken trust..." he said, he is sad and it's awfully... "I broke it. I saw it in your eyes..." He took a pause and said with his shaky voice... "Like you said it won't change that I haven't said it earlier and kept it between us... I know it can't... So,, If you want... If... If you want then... You can take any decision..." the tears that were forming in his eyes for so long finally escaped from his eyes...

Shehnaaz couldn't believe what he just said... No,, she doesn't want to take any such decision that will apart them both... No she doesn't want that... After hearing all about his past she know he wasn't the guilty one... In fact he was the victim of all the vicious act played with him... The worst kind... Her head started spinning suddenly hearing him... Firstly she was already weak in her body due to hangover and an empty stomach... And now this... Her head was spinning but she somehow managed... Managed to keep it straight...

She held his hands tight and came close to him... Very close that Sidharth had to spread his legs to make room for her... She drank the shading tear from his cheek and then looked at him from there... Sidharth's paining heart found relieve but somehow his conscious mind didn't...

"I don't want to take any such decisions..." All she could utter... She was equally getting hurt as him... He closed his eyes that lead some more tears free to shed... Shehnaaz saw and drank all that... He felt his throat choked feeling her everywhere in his cheek... It felt tight... So tight that it was painful even to gulp anything down...

She moved a little away to see his face... His eyes shut... His red nose... Lips tightened...

"Sidharth,,," she whispered... More like pleading to open his eyes... And he did... He opened his eyes and looked at her... Her face was mirroring him in all kind of emotion... She was also feeling guilty for not having enough trust in herself for him... Just like he was guilty for not telling her before and then leading them to this situation... They both just looked at each other with their faces mirroring each other emotion... Maybe Shehnaaz was trying to say something through her eyes... Maybe he understood... Maybe not...

"I'm sorry too" she again whispered... She couldn't say it out loud... She was feeling so guilty... But he was close enough to hear even every breathing of her... Shehnaaz was sitting between his legs... Her face is so close his own... He could hear everything... And he could read everything from her eyes too... He understood why she is saying that but the next moment she said it

"I'm sorry for not trusting you enough..." she choked saying that...

But Sidharth found it absurd... Why would she feel sorry when he finds himself the guilty one... If he had said it earlier than it wouldn't happen... And trust... He felt he actually broke it... By not doing anything but not saying it either...

"It was my fault... You are right on what you did... Anyone would do that... It was me who ruined everything..." He said more firmly than before... Ruined!!! What ruined... Nothing is ruined... But his eyes... It was different... Like he made some decision... She saw it in his eyes... It had guilt, it had sorrow, it had regrets... Shehnaaz got scared seeing it...

She was confused and she was scared... She couldn't manage her action anymore and took his lips on hers... Kissing him, pouring all her love it that... A sloppy,, teary kiss... She wanted to assure him that she will stay... It isn't ruined... It isn't finished... She poured all he fear and all her love in that kiss... Sidharth wasn't reciprocating... He wasn't in his senses right now... He is sad.. And it was beyond just sadness... He felt everything finished till she kissed him... But he couldn't manage to give her the same... Instead he just remained still and let her do anything and everything with him... He felt her tears in his cheeks mingling with his one...

She couldn't bear the pain in her heart of him not reciprocating her... She felt his lips parted letting her do anything she wants but he didn't... Her heart wasn't satisfied with this action of his... So she lifted a bit and settled herself in his lap bringing his legs together and sat on his lap... Never for one second leaving his lips... Only then he held her... He held her on her back... Tightly... Bringing her more close to his chest... And she kept kissing him... Her head still spinning with the effect of her hangover but she knew she won't fall... Not at least now when she is in his arms... This is trust... Whenever she is in his arms.. She feels the safest... She wanted to show him though her kiss that whatever was going in his mind won't happen... Nothing is ruined and they will stay together... 

I'M CRYING...😭😭😭😭😭

I DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN'T STOP...

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