Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 13: ALAG ALAG DUNIYA

The name of the NGO was 'Safe Home'. There was a big hall room where children play. Rooms for the children were inside.

She was gathered by kids as soon as she entered. Some wrapped their arms around her waist. Some reach up to her thigh. One reached till her belly. Some kids could touch her and some wrapped themselves in other kids who could touched her. She was wrapped all around. The surrounding was filled with the giggling and shouting of the children. 'Sana didi agayi' was the mostly uttered by them.

A very wide smile curved in Shehnaaz's lips also. She was overwhelmed by the gesture of these kids. They are her everything. She belongs to them by heart and soul. She tries her heart and soul to not let them feel like she felt when she was a kid. Alone, Sad, Helpless. She will never let them feel like that. She will be always there for them. She looked at them with eyes full of love.

She touched some cheeks and hair of the kids, She lifted the little one who could just walk to them but couldn't touch her due to the competition she had reaching towards Shehnaaz. Her name is Siraat. She could just watch her Sana didi with wide eyes, excited opened mouth and hands hang up in the air. The moment Shehnaaz lifted the little child, she screeched a happy noise that was so loud that it hurt Shehnaaz's ear. But she was overwhelmed to watch all these. She kissed her on her cheeks. Three days she hadn't come and that much they missed her.

After Spending almost 10 minutes with them she went to the main office to meet Mrs. Sarita, 45 year old lady with a golden heart and the owner of this NGO. She entered her office.

"May I come in?" she asked with a big smile in her face. Mrs. Sarita lifted her eyes from the computer to her and instantly a big grin came to her face. Shehnaaz carries this kind of positivity around her always.

"Arreh Shehnaaz beta, haan andar aayo. Kitni fikar ho rahi thi jabse suna tum hospital me ho" she said gesturing her to take a seat. Shehnaaz took the seat.

"kaisi hain Aap?" Shehnaaz asked.

"Yeh sawal mujhe puchna chahiye tumse. Kaisi ho. Kya hua tha mujhe sab kuch detail me bolo." She insisted and Shehnaaz rented all that happened out. she took few gasps hearing about the accident and the pain from that night. She was thankful to the Doctor that helped her this much. But she was more proud of her for saving the kid from accident.

"Sukar hain. Tumhe jayada chhot ayi nehi. Tumhare bina bacche pagal ho jate hain tumhe pata hain na!" she let out a chuckle.

"Haan abhi bhi mujhe chhor nehi rahe the office me anake liye. Bohut mushkil se smajhake ayi hoon adhe ghante me firse unke paas hongi" Shehnaaz also laughed along with her.

"Saab ne to pagal hi kardiya tha. Asim ne aake bola mujhe. Wohh hi sambhal raha tha tumhara kaam." She said.

"Kaam se yaad aaya. Funds ke liye koyi mila?" Shehnaaz asked.

"Haan, kuch log mile. 2/4 companies hain, govt se 1 hain, aur personal 4/5 hain." She described and explained everything to Shehnaaz in next 15 minutes and Shehnaaz listened paying her full attention there.

"Inn saab funds se ho jayega sab kuch?" she asked.

"mujhe to lagta hain ho hi jayega. Aage dekhte hain." Mrs. sarita said

"fundraiser function ke liye jo paise chahiye uska kon dekhraha hain abhi?" Shehnaaz asked

"tumhara sara ka sara kaam Asim ke paas hain. To yeh bhi. Wohh hain taiyarri main. Tum jake dekhlo."she suggested

Shehnaaaz got up from the chair and said.

"Haan, abhi se kamarr kass liya hain maine. Saab kuch ho jayega aur bohut accha hoga dekhna aap,"she said with confidence.

"Haan paar abhi abhi uss kamarr me hi chote lagwake aayi ho. To uska bhi khayal rakhna." Both the ladies giggled and then Shehnaaz left the room.

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Shehnaaz's lips were stuck with sidharth's. He was kissing her with passion. Her soft plump lips were in between of his. He sucked them as his life depended on it. She let out a soft slow moan. She was reciprocating with the same ryhtm. His one hand was on her lower back as she was sitting in his lap straddling him. She came a little closer though she was enough close. her chest was pressed on his. They breath together in same rhythm. Their chest were heaving together. His one hand was in back of her neck and the another was rubbing on her lower back. His hand was roaming on her lower back that tickled her. she shook in the sensation of his rubbing hand. Her little shaky movement made her chest move on his. He sucked hard this time. He pulled her neck more. He wanted her more. Shehnaaz moaned in his mouth, louder this time. That made him sucked more. She was now uncontrollable. she pulled on his hair and bit him on his lips hard. Sidharth shouted in pain. Ouchh.

That made him open his eyes with a jerk. He looked around in shock. Where is she. It took 5 seconds to register in his mind.

He was in his bed. Lights were turned off. But he could watch everything in his room as there was enough moonlight coming through his window. Suddenly he watched his lap and it felt so incomplete. Shehnaaz was in his lap 5 seocnds ago. So what it was in his dream. At least she was. Now he is alone and awake.

"Damn. Why I had to wake up. It was nicer in sleep."

He said under his breath.

He tried to remember the dream. Her sitting in his lap, her lips on his mouth, her back under his hands. He is missing all those now. He let out a chuckle.

"Now, you are doing this. Torturing me in my dream!! Is there any escape from your thought or not." He excepted his defeat to the power she has coming in his thoughts. So he decided not to fight it. Because he cant win this. So he decided to let it take him wherever it wants.

"Shehnaaz" he mumbled.

"how have you this much power over me. I'm not someone who gets attached to people easily, then how!!! I barely know you."

He exhaled loudly.

He left his bed and went to his balcony. There was a chair. He took the seat. Watching the moon. His thought about not seeing shehnaaz again was disturbing him. He stared at the moon. It was bright. He felt it in his face.

He had some bitter experience in relationships. His last one was so bad that he lost all faith in relationships. He doesn't even think about girls like that. Like marriage and all. A girl, doesn't fit in his life. He doesn't want one. Having shehnaaz in his mind was now bothering him. He wants to get rid of her thoughts. He cant just think about her like that. Its not right. He feels guilty to her. Its not right to her. but he cant control his thoughts. He is trying hard but her power seems stronger. He chuckled still looking at the moon. But what is wrong, that is wrong.

'It will be alright, she will be gone from my mind. Its just that I saw her everyday from 3 days. I felt strong physical attracton towards her. Maybe she will be gone from tomorrow as I wont see her anymore. I will be alright' Sidharth was still in his balcony.

Little what he didn't know, SHEHNAAZ KAUR GILL was not someone you can forget easily.