Can't let YOU go !!!

CHAPTER 44: SORRY

"Shehnaaz, wait." He held her hand to stop her. She tried to jerk it but couldn't. She tried enough and then lost her patience.

"Leave me." she shouted.

"Please" he said.

"This, whatever there wasn't even started is OVER."

Sidharth was shocked hearing that. She was leaving him. He knew its gonna happen anyway but not today, not so soon and definitely not like this. He have hurt her to limit. Saying something that can put a question on her character. That too by him. He hated himself that moment. How could he do that? He did understand his mistake but how he is gonna convince Shehnaaz that he was actually sorry. She is definitely not in a mood listening or taking any more shits from him. He took a breath and said in a soft voice still holding her firmly so that she couldn't move.

"Shehnaaz, please listen to me for once. I'm sorry I didn't mean that. It just slipped. I'm sorry." He said when he found a furious glare from her. As if she was throwing fire at him. He never saw this look on her. The anger and some Sadness behind her anger face that she was trying to hide.

"Kya suno? Kafi nehi hain jo bola?" she hit his chest as he wasn't setting her hand free. "And you meant every word you spoke. That's what you think of me. That's what you think about girls. You want one, you marry her by using your all your power. By forcing. Aur wohh bhi kuch time ke liye. Waahh. Kya insaan hain aap! Samajhte kya hain aap aapne aap ko? Main khilona hoon aap ka? Ladkiya khilona hain aap ke liye? Kisiko chaha toh saja liya usse. Mann kiya to phenk diya?" her word broke his heart. That's what she thinks of him. But isn't she got enough reason to say all these. He did some serious damaged to her to hear this from her.

"Shehnaaz," he said but stopped by her.

"kya Shehnaaz? chodo mera haath. Bohut ho gaya. Bohot. Aab main aur nehi le sakti." She gritted her teeth. "Aab bass. Aap, aap ki jhoothi saadi. Aapka jhootha sarafaat ka mukhota. Bass. Jo chahein kar lein aap. Main aapni Ngo kaise bhi ke bacha lungi. Kaash main ye himmat pehele kar leti aur apko court le jaati. Paar galti wohi kar di. Aab galati aur nehi barhana. Bass" she said it loud.

Sidharth was at loss of words. She is leaving him.

"Don't do this" he said cracking every word.

"Kya? Nehi sunna aur Aab." She tried every strength of her body and pushed him hard. This time she was successful. She looked back and grabbed the handle of her luggage to pull it with her.

"Shehnaaz, please, just one minute. Listen to me for once." He didn't hold her this time. But she started to pull onto her bag to leave.

"Please, ek minute." He pleaded but when she was going his mind got lost again. He can't let Shehnaaz go. He couldn't get what he should do to stop her. He would do anything to stop her. But with her every step she was going a little far from him. This idea of her going away, he couldn't take it. He went behind her, snatched the handle from her hand and broke it in one go. Making her look at him with wide opened eyes. He then lifted the heavy bag in his hand like it weighted nothing and threw it in the living room. It got opened and her clothes and some of other things got scatter around. Shehnaaz's heart skipped a bit with the thud sound it made and with the view of Sidharth doing it. She was shocked and her eyes popped out in shock.

Then he came to her and again held her arms firmly in his hold. This time not painfully but tight. He got some advantages of being this strong. Shehnaaz can't even move when he hold her like this. Sidharth was losing his mind watching her go. So he did what he could.

"Tum nehi ja sakti" he said loudly with his gritted teeth. She was scared. "I won't let you go" with the same tone. She was just watching him. His angry red face. One of his vein popped out in his forehead. This sight just made her silent.

In the very next moment he picked her up in his arms and started walking. She got another shock. She held him in shock when he picked her but she released her hold in the next second as she doesn't want to hold him.

"kya kar rahe hain Aap?" she asked but never got a reply. He took her to their room and place her in bed. He went to the cupboard and opened a drawer. Shehnaaz silently watched him confuse. She couldn't get what was happening. The next moment she saw him walking towards the door and locked it from inside. Like really locked it. He had a key in his hand from which he just locked the door. So that Shehnaaz can't go out. He put the key in his pants pocket.

"What the hell" she screamed when the whole scenario wasn't making sense to her.

Sidharth was near her in no time. She was sitting in the bed with her legs hang and Sidharth was standing towering over her.

She looked up at him. His aura was very dominating. His huge form towering over her petite form like this and also in this fighting situation was a little scary for her. But somehow she knew he won't hurt her physically.

"Tum nehi jaoge?" he said with his normal tone like this was nothing. Nothing happened. He just held her captive in their room. His normal tone gave some relief to her. But what he did was not something to tolerate for Shehnaaz.

"Kya matlaab hain Aap ka ki main nehi jaungi?" she asked again.

"Matlaab tum nehi ja sakti" he was calming down. The popping vein in his forehead was getting disappear. His red face was getting normal.

"Sahi hain. pehele jabardasti saadi karoo, phir uske character pe sawal uthaao, phir usse bandi bana lo. Kayeed karlo usko. Aap isse bhi jayada girr sakte hain kya?" she spitted venom which also tore his heart but this wasn't the time to feel or react to it. He already made a mistake and she is angry. He took a breath to gulp it down whatever she just said.

"I am not holding you captive. Tum sunn nehi rahi thi. I just wanted you to listen to me." he said and Shehnaaz chuckled in disgust.

"Aap ko life me jo bhi chahiye aagar wooh normally nehi milta hain to aap aise hi karte ho. Jabardasti aapki baat manwana." She again said with disgust in her face. He didn't say anything. He just bend on his knees in front of her and looked into her eyes. This time their eyes were at the same level. He was on his knees and he placed both of his hands on both side of her on the bed. His eyes were vulnerable. Shehnaaz was confused. She kept looking at him also he never looked away from her for once. They haven't said anything for a long time. He then looked down for a second and then again looked at her still his hands on both her sides.

"I'm sorry Shehnaaz. I really am. I swear I didn't mean it. Please forgive me." he asked forgiveness. His eyes were a little wet. He wasn't crying but she can see that he is genuinely sorry about it.

A man like Sidharth sitting on his knee, with his vulnerable eyes, looking at her this way. She knew he meant his SORRY.

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