crave

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i stare at the ceiling, silencing my mother's rant as she yells from the door way. i can feel myself fading away, trying to find my 'happy place' as people like to call it. i've done it ever since i was young, you get used to it after living with my mother.

she tries to live her life through me since her life has been absolute shit. she married my father when she was young, dealt with his temper until i was born, then i was left to deal with it. it seems that over the years she has turned into him, yelling any moment she can.

anyways, like i was saying, she hates her life. so i'm supposed to be perfect to "represent" the family she says. shes schooled me herself ever since i was four, wouldn't let me go anywhere. i've learned how to worship the dark lord and that one day i'll have my very own dark mark...no matter how much i don't want one.

"you will not attend that school, EVER" she yells and i groan as i sit up and look straight into her green eyes full of rage. "i am, you can't stop me. i've spoken to the headmaster, the train leaves in the morning. with me on it" i say and it look as of her eyes are going to pop out of her head.

i don't know why she's so angry, she attended hogwarts. it's not like it's dangerous and even if it was i'm sure i know more than most at the school. no matter how much i hated her teaching me she does know her stuff. but i have to start getting out of here before i turn into-well her.

"elizabeth-" "don't call me that" i cut her off, i hate that name. she named me after her mother, a cruel and evil person. she killed half-bloods and muggle borns for fun, as a daily activity. "beth" she says, i prefer liz but we all know she's not going to change anymore.

"you are not going to that school. what will your father say?" she says and i scoff "im done letting that asshole run my life. you can continue to let him walk over you but i'm done. i leave tomorrow, with or without you there to say goodbye" i say and she just shakes her head to display her disappointment.

she slams my door shut and i can hear her heals click down the long staircase. i stand up, my feet hit the cold floor and i shiver. this house is always cold, always empty. i walk over to my trunk and finish packing some of my things. i doubt my mother will show up to see me leave tomorrow, father would think she's taking my side.

i click the trunk closed and put my wand on top of it. i think for a moment and put it inside my trunk, knowing my mother she will come and try to take it so i can't leave. i'll just take it out before i get on the train.

i walk into my bathroom and turn the water to the shower on before undressing. the hot water steams up the bathroom quickly and i smile as i step in. my back arches to get out of the water at first but i get used to it. the water runs down my back as i let it relax me. i can't help but smile as the excitement of finally getting to go out fills my stomach.

i've researched hogwarts and i've heard many things about it of course. i know the four houses; gryffindor, hufflepuff, ravenclaw, and slytherin. both my parent's were slytherins so i most likely will be too and i won't mind it. i heard about the boy that died last year, the doings of voldemort of course. and of course the famous Harry potter goes there. though, i doubt we'll have anything to do with each other