crave

fifty-five

i laugh as i throw a ball of snow at draco and he glares at me. "lighten up, draco. stop being such a bum" i say and he shakes his head. "i thought you loved the snow" i say and he shrugs "i like to watch the snow not sit in it and get it thrown at me" he says. "oh. okay" i say before throwing more snow at him. i hear esmeray laugh as draco looks at me again and sighs "fine. be like that" i say as i grab a sled, "race me" i say to cam and he nods. we both set up our sleds and he looks at me. "1-2-" my counting is cut off when i feel the cold snow his my back, some of it slides down my shirt.

i turn my head to see draco with a smirk on his face and i laugh "3" cam says, pushing himself down the hill. "oh my god, fuck both of you" i say as i push myself. the wind flows through my hair and the cold air makes my eyes water. my mind rushes back to the other night, the ground growing closer as i fall from the astronomy tower. "ha, i won" cam brags and i stop my sled and sigh as i stand up. images still flowing throughout my mind. "you alright" he asks and i nod as i push the thoughts away.

"elizabeth, are you okay" draco asks as we get to the top of the hill. "i'm fine. i just-i'm going to start walking back to school. i had fun, see you guys tomorrow" i sigh and draco looks at me. "thanks for inviting me everyone" he says as he follows me. i sigh as he walks beside me "elizabeth, what's wrong" he asks and i shake my head "nothing. i'm just ready to go" i say and he rolls his eyes. "you know you can't lie to me, elizabeth. tell me what happened" he orders and i smile as i look at him.

"we have a long walk back so you might as well start talking before i push you in the snow" he threats and i laugh "okay okay, no need to get violent" i say and he laughs. "i just keep thinking about the other night on the astronomy tower. i was going to stop myself, that was the plan. then i jumped and it felt like slow motion. i was thinking abotu everything, my parents, my friends, us. and i decided i wasnt going to stop. i loved the feeling. i felt free. it was my decision. but seconds before i was actually going to hit the ground, it was like a switch flipped and i didn't want to anymore. i guess i'm just disappointed that i would let myself get so low" i shrug and he shakes his head.

"but you stopped yourself, elizabeth. you should be proud. you knew that you could make it through whatever was going on, and you did" he says and i sigh as i nod. he wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me closer to him. i lean my head on his shoulder and smile as the familiar feeling of comfort hits my body. the feeling of being. of being home.

"i missed you, elizabeth" he sighs and i smile "i missed you too." "you want to know what i missed most" he says with a sly tone in his voice "don't even say it" i laugh and he scoffs. "i just had to go four days without fucking you, elizabeth. i could have died" he says dramatically and i laugh. "oh my gosh" i say pushing him away from me, "what? you know you missed it too" he says and i roll my eyes as he laughs. "i'm kidding. i missed your smile" he says and i look at him "and your body" he laughs and i roll my eyes. i grab a handful of snow and throw it at him "elizabeth, be careful. you're getting yourself into trouble" he threats and i throw another ball of snow at him. he laughs as he pushes me into a pile of snow and i look at him "i warned you" he shrugs as he continues walking, leaving me behind.

*dracos pov*
i laugh as i look at elizabeth laying in the snow. her smile is wide on her face, her eyes are bright. not like the past days where her smile hasn't existed and her eyes didn't shine. this is my elizabeth. this is the elizabeth i love. "i warned you" i shrug as i turn to walk away. i know i won't get far before i turn around and help her up or before she catches up to me. "you're an ass" she laughs as she wipes snow off of her.

we get back to hogwarts and she sighs as we walk into the common room. "thank you for coming" she smiles as i sit on the couch. "you don't have to thank me" i shrug and she laughs "i have a lot to thank you for" she says and i smile. "save it for another day. are you reading anything right now" i ask her and she shakes her head "no, i can't find a good book to read" she sighs. "well, come on then" i say as i stand up, she laughs as i take her hand and drag her out of the common room.

*elizabeths pov*
draco pulls me to the library and i laugh. "what are we in the mood for? i'm thinking another like the last one you read" he says as he starts to look at a section of books. the library is completely empty, most students being at dinner or spending their freetime anywhere but the library. "i don't know, draco. but you don't have to look with me" i laugh and he looks at me "if i'm going to be listenting to a story i wan to help pick it. so shut up, and help look" he says and i roll my eyes.

we both look for a good book that looks like we would both like it for a while. i'm looking at a stack of books about the wizarding mysterious and all of the evil inside of them when draco wraps his arms around my waist. he leans his chin onto my shoulder and i smile "elizabeth" he says and i laugh "draco" i copy him. "remember when you visited for christmas" he says as he slips his hand under my shirt, i aready know where this is going. "yes" i breath out and he laughs "remember what i said i wanted to do in the library" he continues and i nod. "i think you owe me this" he says, kissing my neck and i lean my head to the side to give him more room. "i think you owe me this, since you wanted to be a slut for someone else. but elizabeth, you're mine. so let me fuck you in the library" he says and i nod, giving in to his fantasy.